yeah. like, she was really the only friend i had. everyone in my school thinks that i'm a weirdo and they just don't want to have anything to do with me. at lunch i sit all alone. sometimes i'll just sit there eating and i'll just be sobbing. my teachers are all like 'what's wrong? what happened?', but i know that if i tell them, they won't understand. sometimes i just sit and wonder where i went wrong. we had a musical review at my school and i sang 'once upon a time' by idina menzel. after i finished, everyone in the audience just sat there. no applause or anything. my parents weren't there. i just couldn't believe it. i ran home hysterical. i've never been that embarrassed in my life. i think that i am a nice person. i just guess that people can't respect me for who i am. i've thought about this for practically my whole life. I slipped into a state of depression once, and i almost killed myself because i was so miserable. now after this happened, i'm afraid that i'm going to become that way again. i think that i am more scared than i am upset.
i just really want to thank you all for accepting me. i feel that i can really express myself here. you are all such great people, and i feel privaledged to have the online friendships that i do. i feel that i can really connect with you guys. great here i go again. sobfest! but really, you guys have been so great to me. just, thank you guys so much.
"People asking questions, lost in confusion. Well I tell them there's no problems, only solutions."
~The one and only John Lennon