I refuse...I will...

There is so much negativity in this world. It seems as if the world has an outer shell of hatred and corruption. Sadness looms over everything like the raincloud it is. Never going away. Never going somewhere else.

I refuse. I refuse to give into that.

I refuse to give into the negativity that pervades us all. I know I have in the past. I know that my actions here and in real life were not the right things to do. But now, I'm taking that step and saying "I refuse." I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm leaving it behind.

I will.

I will is a new beginning. A new start. Saying "I will" is saying that I am going to go somewhere else. Away from the negativity. I'm going to put more emphasis on love. I'm going to put more emphasis on the positive. The world is not cruel. The world is not awful. The world is loving. Forgiving.

I will.

I will become a part of that.

Some of you probably do not know that, for a while, I was suicidal. I woke up in the morning and refused to go on. I was this close to taking a knife and ending it all. Or some other kind of weapon.

I am never going to think like that again.

I want to live.

No life should be lost in that manner.

Therapy starts immediately. I am so sorry that my problems have dragged me down for so long. I will begin a process to help myself and all of those in my life.

I want to live.

Thank you and goodnight.

Admitting there's a problem is a big step. So glad to hear that therapy will start immediately. Hope you will! mom

Maybe only to COOL Sandwich. :)

Congrats. That's great news.

It's very liberating to take such a great permanent step forward.

Wishing you the best.

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No steps back, 2 steps forward. GO GO GO GO GO..........

The help is there waiting for you, make it a good choice!

The quote of the day- "Make it a good day or not, it's up to you!"

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exactly.........

here we go again

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Well, I hope it's for real for you this time. Therapy is a wonderful thing for most people. My tip to everyone is to realize that things might get messier before they get better, but that's part of the healing process. To give up at that point, because it will only make things worse. Fight through that and you'll be amazed when you get to the better side of it.

Good luck and good for you! :)

That woman is nuts.

I'm staying away from that thread on purpose.

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