Starting to freak out!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I have just come to face the reality that this upcoming september I will be a senior and soon I am going to have to srart sending in applications, and making audition tapes, and choosing all of my audition material. I also am applying for the arts awards to get a scholarship!! I knew that this was coming, but now that it is almost here I am just a little scared. I am starting to think about my future, and if I will ever make it in this career, living away from home and if I am ready, just about everything and I am getting a little freaked out. Tonight, right before I posted this I cried for like a minute because I am getting scared. I always thought once senior year was here I would be so excited, but now I almost wish I could rewind to freshman year and start high school over. I keep thinking if I am going to go away or stay in NY (where I live) and while there is a school I really have always wanted to go to in boston, it scares me. I think when I get there I will cry for my mom the whole night. I have always been really close to my family so I am just getting scared about possibly leaving them. I just had to get that off of my chest, I haven't told my mom yet, but I think I will. Does anyone have any advice? And has this ever happend to anyone else? Thanks so much!!!

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I know I wanted to "rewind" back to freshman year too! It seamed like everything was going so fast and had gone really really fast. I do have one piece of advice though (although it seems like you are already doing it): START EARLY. It seems like its never too early to apply for anything. I didn't get any scholarship money because I didn't apply for it (I'm going to a school I didn't think I would go to in a million years so I didn't think I needed to apply)

Also, don't worry about it too much. Like Ashley0139 said, everyone is going through the same thing. And pretty soon it will all be over (enjoy your senior year~!) and everything will have worked out.

Good Luck and Have Fun!

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Yes, it's normal to start feeling a bit of panic. Use that nervous energy, though, and channel it into adrenaline that fuels your performances, and go shine!

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Know, too, that you are not the only one who will miss your family. I'm really close with my mom, too (think Gilmore Girls close), and I definitely cried when she left. Being a theatre major helped, though, because it forced me to jump right into things. And, even if your not doing theatre in college, just make yourself get involved in something. It definitely helped me.

Also, know that it's not a final decision (even if it seems like it). It's OK if you go and end up transfering or something for spring term or your sophomore year. I have a good friend who ended up doing that. He found that after being away for a bit he knew better where he wanted to be and what he was looking for in a school.