i dont know just what to do with myself
i dont know just what to do with myself
Joined: 12/31/69
i dont know just what to do with myself#1
Posted: 1/18/08 at 1:49pm
forgive me goin all cruel sandwich, but i am at the end of my rope.
i cant hide from the fact that nothing is ever gonna get better at my job.
i have to find something eslse to do with my life.
something where my talents & skills have some value.
maybe i am deluding myself, but i feel that i have more to offer...
what ive been doing for the past 5 years is graphic art & design for kids clothes...but due to budget cuts in the company, ive been having to do more & more production & less & less creative.
to the point where i havent done anything creative in many months.
& it looks like its just gonna get worse.
i dont even want to be in this industry,...i just took this art job to pay the biills. i dont even know what i WANT to do.
yes, i do. i want to DRAW. but thats so unspecific..
but theres GOT to be some job where my art would be appreciated!!!
where i would be treated with a little bit of respect & decency ( i *do* think theres some kind of weird homophobic aspect to the way i am treated here)
i am just feeling hopeless.
obviously things are very bad if i have to issue a public cry for help like this.
i'll probably feel really embarrassed about this as soon as i hit the "post" button.
well, i can always go full-on cruel & edit all out later.
Updated On: 1/18/08 at 01:49 PM
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#2
Posted: 1/18/08 at 1:54pmIf it means anything, I love your work!
Joined: 12/31/69
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#3
Posted: 1/18/08 at 1:55pm
You are brilliantly talented. You should be working for a major newspaper or magazine. Heck--I would love to see your artwork animated. There are a gazillion possibilities with your talent.
Maybe it's just time to reinvent yourself and take it to a whole new level?
Hang in there!
Broadway Legend Joined: 6/3/05
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#4
Posted: 1/18/08 at 1:59pmTake it from a middle aged homo. Don't be scared of change and do NOT sell yourself short. Take a chance.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#5
Posted: 1/18/08 at 1:59pmAs everyone has said you're very talented.Do something for yourself. Splurge on something that you've been wanted. Get to the gym and throw some weights around. I agree with jrb, it could be time to refocus.
Broadway Legend Joined: 4/7/04
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#6
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:03pm
Most of us feel like this at some point. So please know that you are not alone.
Waves of joy and waves of suffering. That's what life is.
Try to be patient with yourself until the tide shifts...and it will. It always does.
You are a gift to us all, and I don't just mean because of your talent as an artist. I mean because of who you are.
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re: i dont know just what to do with myself#7
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:04pmTake a risk. As many as you can.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#8
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:06pmYeah, we love you. Don't quit your job until you have something else. I know it's a drag to create art on spec, but there ain't no reason, to my way of thinking, that you can't be the next indie comics darling.
Broadway Legend Joined: 4/10/04
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#9
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:18pm
ANIMATION!
You HAVE to!
Broadway Legend Joined: 4/30/07
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#10
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:37pmJust looked at some of your artwork and it is great! Keep going!!! You have a lot of talent=-)
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#11
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:39pm
Draw a little box in the middle of a sheet of paper. Put all your old thinking in it. Write down all your complaints in tiny letters so you can fit them all in that little box. That little box, crammed with complaints--that's your life right now.
Now look at all the space outside that box. That's where all the ideas that will make you happy are. Write some words down. Draw some pictures. All about your life beyond that box.
Make a list outside that box of everything you want in a job: You want your art to be appreciated. You want to be treated with respect. You want a less homophobic environment. You want to feel hope again.
Don't put anything negative outside the box or any complaints about your current position. Just be idealistic and a little grandiose. Fill the whole page outside the box with your I WANTs without any of your old complaints.
Now that you're out of that awful box, you can start to think about how to manifest those I Wants...
We all see you doing drawings for the Sunday Times and designing Gypsy posters. If you could see yourself as we see you, you would have all that and more.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#12
Posted: 1/18/08 at 2:42pmDrawing is your passion. And you are brilliant at it. It's hard sometimes to reconcile the "day job" with our passion. About twice a year I get the itch to leave my corporate, dead-end job (marketing graphics for an engineering firm) but when I get close to a different job, I realize that my current job gives me the opportunity to follow my passion - theater - without too much added stress. And until I can do that full time, I'm keeping my low-key day job.
Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. - Randy Pausch
Broadway Legend Joined: 4/8/06
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#13
Posted: 1/18/08 at 3:11pm
Cheer up Norn!
You are amazing, and we love you!
-Adam Shankman.
"I haven't left this building since Windows 3.1!"
"Celebrating a birthday this week: Rene Descartes is 412! Do you know who he is? Then why are you watching this show? You could probably get into college and even get one of those job things. As for the rest of us; Amanda Bynes is 22! Yay!"
-E!'s "The Soup"
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#14
Posted: 1/18/08 at 3:16pm
i just don't know what to do with myself
i don't know what to do with myself
movies only make me sad
parties make me feel as bad
cause I'm not with you
i just don't know what to do
like a summer rose
needs the sun and rain
i need your sweet love
to beat love away
...global warming can manifest itself as heat, cool, precipitation, storms, drought, wind, or any other phenomenon, much like a shapeshifter. -- jim geraghty
pray to st. jude
i'm a sonic reducer
he was the gimmicky sort
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Broadway Legend Joined: 2/9/04
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#15
Posted: 1/18/08 at 3:19pmI echo Mateos comment.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#16
Posted: 1/18/08 at 3:19pm
I agree with everything already said, and as Pennywise said....we all go through this, and remember while you are in a "down" now....an "up" WILL come.
You are an amazing artist, simply amazing.....your work is very unique.
During these times, remember that you live in one of the most amazing cities on the planet, and remember why you moved there.
Change is good........find your dream, grab it, and hang on for dear life as it is worth it.
Joined: 12/31/69
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#17
Posted: 1/18/08 at 3:50pm
thank you all.
im gonna try to take some action.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#18
Posted: 1/18/08 at 4:38pmI'm with Diva- you've got to get into animation! There are so many talented people on this board who could help with music, producing DVD's, storytelling, marketing. The possibilities are endless. I wish there could be a meeting of minds. Your art is so adorable and the animation on the opening page of your website just makes me smile. If I lived closer to you, I would start working on a project with you right this minute! I can just see all the licensing materials in the market as we speak! Bestie could help with the DVD's. Erika could provide the vocals. Take some of that negative energy and channel it. I'm not just blowing smoke up you know where, I TRULY believe you are very talented. Your original post saddened me but the responses are so sincere and generous. mom
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#19
Posted: 1/18/08 at 4:42pm
Norn,
Hang in there.
Your talent speaks for yourself.
And, I would love to see you get into adult graphic novels - with your talent, you could make a real mark.
I don't buy comic books, but I would buy something you create because it is just so beautiful.
Hang in there.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#20
Posted: 1/18/08 at 4:47pm
I thought this thread was going to be about Fiona Apple.
"Days like this, I dont know what to do with myself.
All day - and all night.
I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath.
I say to myself.
I need fuel - to take flight"
But seriously, Norn, try to stay positive. You are extremely talented. Now, you just have to figure out how to get paid for doing what you love.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#21
Posted: 1/18/08 at 4:49pmand if that doesn't work, shh'll dance naked for you. if that doesn't ispire ya, then you can gfet worried.
...global warming can manifest itself as heat, cool, precipitation, storms, drought, wind, or any other phenomenon, much like a shapeshifter. -- jim geraghty
pray to st. jude
i'm a sonic reducer
he was the gimmicky sort
fenchurch=mejusthavingfun=magwildwood=mmousefan=bkcollector=bradmajors=somethingtotalkabout: the fenchurch mpd collective
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#22
Posted: 1/18/08 at 5:02pmPapi, Norn met me. He wasn't very impressed.
re: i dont know just what to do with myself#23
Posted: 1/18/08 at 5:07pm
i love your artwork.
i think you're very very talented.
i hope you can find some way to use this talent.
talent like yours is not something that everyone has!
Ugly is beautiful
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re: i dont know just what to do with myself#24
Posted: 1/18/08 at 5:09pm
"Don't worry. You're being led to where you belong."
--Marianne Williamson
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