#1
Posted: 5/24/05 at 1:04pm
i'm sitting at work, and i'm bored, so i'm going to vent. i've now forewarned you, so stop reading if you're not interested in hearing me complain 
SO...i "graduated" from college on sunday. "graduated" meaning that i walked in the ceremony but still have two classes to take over the summer. i only went to a regular university because that's what my parents wanted me to do, and i'm greatful now that i have my degree, but i really would have rather gone to a performing arts school. now, of course, my parents are insisting that i "find a job, even if you don't like it, just make sure that you have health insurance". They know that i have this passion to work in theatre, but they in no way support it. i'm 23 years old, a college graduate and i still constantly feel as if i need my parents approval for everything, and when i don't get it, i tend to give up on what i want and take the road that they have chosen.
i know this happens to alot of people my age, but what do i do? right now, i'm not financially secure enough to go out on my own because technically they are still paying for school and i owe them money. i'm going to do everything i can this summer to put away enough money to move to the city by december (i currently live on the ct/ny border) but i'm so afraid of going after what i really want and then having to go back and hearing them say "i told you so". the fact that they don't believe that i can do it makes me want it that much more, but it also increases that fear. i know that i just need to grow up and get over that, but it's much harder than i ever imagined.
so, anyway, thank you fellow broadway worlders, for playing the role of my own personal therapist this morning. any diagnosis and suggestions for follow-up treatment would be much appreciated
SO...i "graduated" from college on sunday. "graduated" meaning that i walked in the ceremony but still have two classes to take over the summer. i only went to a regular university because that's what my parents wanted me to do, and i'm greatful now that i have my degree, but i really would have rather gone to a performing arts school. now, of course, my parents are insisting that i "find a job, even if you don't like it, just make sure that you have health insurance". They know that i have this passion to work in theatre, but they in no way support it. i'm 23 years old, a college graduate and i still constantly feel as if i need my parents approval for everything, and when i don't get it, i tend to give up on what i want and take the road that they have chosen.
i know this happens to alot of people my age, but what do i do? right now, i'm not financially secure enough to go out on my own because technically they are still paying for school and i owe them money. i'm going to do everything i can this summer to put away enough money to move to the city by december (i currently live on the ct/ny border) but i'm so afraid of going after what i really want and then having to go back and hearing them say "i told you so". the fact that they don't believe that i can do it makes me want it that much more, but it also increases that fear. i know that i just need to grow up and get over that, but it's much harder than i ever imagined.
so, anyway, thank you fellow broadway worlders, for playing the role of my own personal therapist this morning. any diagnosis and suggestions for follow-up treatment would be much appreciated
