yay, i don't know how tragic it will seem but here goes...
so my school's prom is the first thurs. in february b/c the seniors spend the second half of their senior year in israel so prom is before they leave. (i'm a junior) it's and junior/senior prom and all the juniors go. at first nobody knew who they were going w/ but now everyone pretty much has dates...everyone except me that is. there are a lot of people who didn't have a date in school so they're bring people from out of school, and lot of USY people for those of you who know what that is. (a jewish, youth, social thing) so i was going to go w/ two of my friends who also didnt have dates. except one of them does have someone she can bring from out of school but she doesn't want to b/c he doesnt know anybody. so when people ask her who she's going w/ she's like, i have a date but i'm not bringing him. my other friend was asked by someone today during lunch so she now has a date. therefore, i am the only, or one of the only ones who is truly dateless. i don't really know anyone from out of school that i could bring. usually i have more self-confidence but for some reason this is leaving me feeling quite inadequate and depressed. i thought i'd be able to have fun at prom w/ my friends anyway but now i'm not so sure. it's also embarassing telling people i don't have a date. i know i shouldn't care what they think but sometimes you cant help it. ....just another reason why i can't wait for college. on top of this prom stress, there's hours and hours of homework (which i should be doing now), no sleep which heightens emotions, and lots of other responsibilites for clubs and things, and the beg of the whole college process. so yea, i just feel really bad today about this whole prom thing. i never did before, it really started today. see, i wouldn't want to go w/ the person that asked my friend but at least there's somebody that wants to go w/ her. there's a chance that a semi-friend will ask me, but i know he's pretty much doing it as a last resort so that's not very happy. and, i have an awesome dress to wear from my sister's bat-mitzvah last year and i really like the way i look in it and all, which is rare. but for some reason, that's making it worse in my mind b/c i feel kind of stupid getting so dressed up and fancy and all without a date.
that's the end of my rant for now. sorry it's so long and incoherent but it did feel good to type it all out and knowing that there are others that also feel a need to angst.
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