I am probably going to have to take a year off between high school and college ... and USC (where I REALLLY) want to go doesn't defer, so even if I get in this year I will have to Re-apply for next year...and this won't be a fun traveling year. It will be an unhappy medically annoying one.
The reason why is not fun and is why I am angsty and crap right now...
My jaw disintigrated. Not in a HUGE way, until I say something nobody has any clue, so it's not like my face is disfigured or something (which I am SO GLAD didn't happen)...
The part of my lower jaw that fits into the upper jaw (the condyl, the part that moves whenever you open or close your jaw) is what disintigrated, so now my jaw is tilted ever so such that only two of my teeth comfortably touch (back right side).
This causes a LOT of stress in my face etc, so I am constantly getting headaches and my face and jaw always hurts. And, the only physical sign of this whole thing, is that my front teeth cannot touch. There is a definite gap whenever I try (which makes eating interesting sometimes...like a sandwich and lettuce, ooh thats not fun).
I just had a phone call with my orthodontist (who is in charge of the whole fixing procedure) and he said the surgery to fix this (where they will carve my jaw up, ugh) is probably going to be in September instead of during the early summer as he had said. And after my surgery, I will have so many rubber bands in my mouth (on my braces...3rd f*cking set...ARGH) that my jaw will essentially be wired shut for 6-8 weeks. And I will be on a liquid diet. The entire time. And I will have so much swelling and bruising in my face that it will 'looked like i was mugged.' Quote from my doctor.
Fu*$%^&!@#$%^&*&.
And I will have to wear braces for another 6 months after the surgery as well. And I do NOT want to go to college with braces (they make me look REALLY young).
So for the past year, and for next year apparently as well, my life is ruled by this goddamned jaw problem. And I just finished all my damn college apps, only to find this out.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
"If you can talk, you can sing...if you can walk, you can dance."
- T.K. Greene