Depression is it just me?

[Amneris]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 9:22am

Am I the only one who has everyday mood swings here? I go from being very happy to then thinking about something ruining my happiness and I worry and then everything falls apart. Sounds crazy right? I am really beginning to think Im a downer.

Maybe it's the air..

xoxo
Amneris

[My Fair Lady]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 9:25am

It's okay. That happens to me a lot. I'm in a really good mood and just talking to my friends, then all of a sudden my mom says clean your room and I start crying. So unless we're both insane, I think it's normal.

[ckeaton]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 9:28am

Nope, you're not alone.
For the past month or so, especially... I've been up and down like a yo-yo. Happiness and contentment, almost immediatley followed by a feeling of hopelessness and sometimes upset. Sometimes, there is an event that I can trace the shift too, sometimes not.

My mom claims it has to do with the barometer. I don't know if I'm signed on to that or not. I know it's more than that. But either way, I'm not sure how to get rid of the mood swings.

It doesn't sound crazy. It's more normal than you think.

[JohnPopa]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 11:32am

Nah, mood swings are pretty normal. We all have a lot on our minds so things can sometimes bubble up for no good reason or out of nowhere. Take a walk, watch a funny movie, go to lunch with friends. All will be well. And never, EVER work in an office full-time. Then there is no silver lining.

[jrb_actor]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 11:34am

You live in NYC don't you? lol :)

[JohnPopa]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 11:41am

Heh. No, Canton, Ohio: Where Dreams Go To Die.

[SueleenGay]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 12:22pm

In these days of horror it's hard not to get depressed about things. Focus on the things you can control and things that make you happy ( Your health and family, Guiding Light!.) And put on some good music!

Updated On: 6/21/04 at 12:22 PM

[PB ENT.]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 12:25pm

We live in extemely stressfull times...everyone gets this way now and then. Sure we've always had problems. Just ask you mom or dad or anyone over 40! But the world's wickedness has intensified.

Personally I've seen a change in people since 9/11. Fear, fragile, frsutrated, anger, vulnerable, untrusting, unsure are all words we've come to accept as a "way of life". I am especially distraught about these recent ,unthinkable beheadings. How insanely inhumane can we get! It's enough to depress Ronald MacDonald. Pray...just pray for the millions less fortunate than yourself. And let God take over what we can't change.

BUT... we can't let this destroy our everyday life. We have to
think about how to live our personal lives to help others and be the best person we can be. Set a realistic goal and remind yourself of just how better off you are than many others.

Here's an old proverb that set me straight "I once complained about my shoes hurting , until I met a man with no feet".

It's better to nurture a good thought than harbor a bad one. Call someone who makes you feel good and spend some time with them...often.

OK...sister mary, francis,hootchie mamma, patricia ann....signing out!

Updated On: 6/21/04 at 12:25 PM

[JohnPopa]

Posted: 6/21/04 at 12:36pm

As a very wise man once said "Show a little faith, there's magic in the night."

[My Fair Lady]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:05am

I'm going to bump this.

First-I can't believe I posted in this thread almost two years ago, and I still feel the same.

I thought I'd matured since then, but clearly, I haven't. I'm really the same person I was in 7th grade. I have awful mood swings and I think I might be depressed, but I'm not sure.

I also looked at another old thread of mine, called "Would you miss me?" I'm the same insecure person looking for confirmation that I'm not worthless.

This can't be healthy. It really can't. Is there any way for me to stop these thoughts?

EDIT-Also, to let more out...I'm extremely paranoid. I live in a mainly residential area, one of the safest in the country, but I'm always worried about bad things happening. I don't like to walk alone at night or be the last in my house to fall asleep. Also, I'm paranoid about other things, such as whether people are really my friends or if they hate me and are trying to get close to me to reveal my secrets. I don't know when this started, but it makes it hard for me to trust people, and I'm constantly worried. Updated On: 2/13/06 at 12:05 AM

[Jane2]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:16am

My Fair lady-I don't think the behavior is normal, not only for you but for the people who posted early in the thread. Oh,, I know, we all say "who's normal, etc" and we laugh. But the fact that you're still not feeling right, and you say it's two years later-well, you don't need anyone else to tell you something's wrong. Do you have parents you can talk to about this? Sometimes they can help by listening, but if not, I'd recommend speaking to a therapist. In this way, you can determine if you need weekly treatment, or something like that, or maybe you'll find that medication will help. I poo-pooed medication at one time in my life, but years ago I suddenly went into panic attacks and had anxiety for no reason I could think of. I took some medication for a while, and got all better! Please do something because no one has to live a life feeling badly.

[Plum]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:31am

"Normality" isn't what matters in this case- what matters is if you feel okay and that you can function well as you are.

At your age I was also pretty mistrustful, because the backstabbing and bitchery of middle school can do that to you. As you get older, hopefully you'll find that you can trust your friends more.

Your mood swings could have a hormonal explanation. You know it's really serious when you always feel tired but can't sleep, when you lose interest in everything because you feel like it's not worth doing, if you lose your appetite, and if you feel like you're worthless. At that point you might need therapy; you don't need to wait until you have suicidal thoughts or something.

If it's not quite that bad or you're not sure, just be sure to regulate your sleeping and eating times, don't have caffeine, and keep a good diet. If you haven't been doing that, it works wonders.

[2nd dead woman]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:31am

I agree with Jane2
Getting a little "blue" is normal but, being depressed for over 2 years is not. You should seek medical help. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after my parents found out that I was self-mutilating and attempting sucide. That was in the 8th grade and it was a bumpy ride to recovery. I am now 21 and am very healthy. There is help out there. You just have to find it. THe first step is telling good ole mom and dad. If they don't listen (which they probally will) tell a guidence counselor at your school. When you tell your parents tell them what is really happening. Ask them to set you up with a therapist.
you are a great person and nobody deserves to feel this way. Get help. Feel better. E-mail me if you have any questions. I have been through this before.
*hugs*

[My Fair Lady]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:37am

Well...I get up at 6 in the morning on school days to excercise. I have a fairly healthy diet. However, I have coffee every school day and some weekends, because otherwise, it's hard for me to wake up. I don't self-mutilate (unless scratching myself when I'm angry counts) and I'm not suicidal. I switch off between being really hyper and feeling really empty and "emo". I have very low self worth. I do care about my life, though. I still have interest. I'm very into my music and my grades (as you'll see on the "I have a 3.9 GPA" thread) and some of my extracurriculars.
I don't think I'm healthy, but at the same time, I don't want to see a therapist. I have this image that I like keeping, the one of being perfect. Being depressed doesn't exactly help me keep that up. I want the administration of my school to like me, and they don't seem to notice me-at all. I'm pretty sure I wasn't chosen to be a color war captain which, while stupid, pretty much convinces me that they couldn't care less about me. My mom pulled my sister out of the school, but I know she wants me to stay, and I'm doing well, other then that I don't really have friends and my little administration problem.
I don't even know why I'm bothering to post all this. I guess I just need to get it out.

[Overthemoon6]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:41am

I feel depressed all the time. "Blame it on your Daddily and Mammily, Cause depression runs in the family". Truer words have never been spoken for me.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:41am

I don't know that being a perfectionist is really good for ANYONE. Because it's impossible to be perfect, and when you're not, that's only going to make you feel worse about yourself. Vicious cycle, you know?

As for the feelings of ups and downs like that, unless it's really interfering with your ability to go about normal things, I think it's fairly normal, especially as a teenager. I mean, you recnogize that you aren't happy all the time, but at the same time, you say you aren't suicidal or anything like that.

[My Fair Lady]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:43am

I know I'm not suicidal, but I feel a little like the Zoloft bubble with the little black cloud above my head.

[2nd dead woman]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:44am

thearpy is not the devil. it is good. I know you may think it will make you feel like some kind of freak for going but it really helps to just tallk. You don't have to get rid of your mental imagery. If it works, go for it! The best thing now is to talk to someone. Mom, Dad, anyone. It might be hormonal. (Damn Hormones) but just keep on truckin'!

As for friends... I'll be your friend :)

[Overthemoon6]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:44am

One time I was really mad at my parents, so I was talking to my friend and I was like, "ugh if I killed myself, they'd be sorry." I know that this was an awful thing to say, but she went and told her mom that I was gonna kill myself, who told my mom.

[My Fair Lady]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:46am

Maybe therapy might be good idea...confiding to strangers online can never be smart (by strangers I mean BWW, not creepy MySpace rapists). Who knows who'll read it?

[Jane2]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:48am

Hon, you aren't ready to seek help. If you've posted on this board that you were worried about how you feel, and now two years later, you KNOW you still don't feel right, well, things aren't right. Sure, there are many things that are expected to happen to us when we're growing up, things that occur in school and out, but what I'm hearing from you is that you know you aren't happy and you know it from your heart. When you're ready to do something about it, I'm hoping you do so - it is NOT normal to go around with constant thoughts and feelings such as yours.

[Plum]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:49am

The nightmare of being diagnosed with depression (and no teenager should have to be burdened with this choice, but there is is) is that once it's happened, you can have serious problems with getting health insurance.

MFL, trust yourself and do what you think is right.

[My Fair Lady]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:50am

Just curious-why do you have trouble getting health insurance?

When I feel like I need tp, I'll tell my mom. I'll have to arrange something time-wise.

[Jane2]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:50am

After reading the other threads-I want to assure you that MILLIONS of people go to therapy and MILLIONS take medication. It's nothing to be ashamed about. Not doing anything about yourself is what's a shame.

[Jane2]

Posted: 2/13/06 at 12:51am

No you do not have trouble. Insurances cover the cost of therapists.