Do you ever feel like . . .
#2
Posted: 4/18/07 at 1:01am
Yes.
I'm gonna find my purpose...gotta find me!
I'm gonna find my purpose...gotta find me!
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#3
Posted: 4/18/07 at 1:01am
i used to sit in my room when i was little and ask myself what the point of life was and why i was here and what i was supposed to do and i would end up scaring myself.
i'm just living in the moment right now and trying not to think about what's going to happen next.
is that good? probably not, but it's keeping what i have left of my sanity together for the time being.
i'm just living in the moment right now and trying not to think about what's going to happen next.
is that good? probably not, but it's keeping what i have left of my sanity together for the time being.
Less is more
Ugly is beautiful
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Ugly is beautiful
"My brother plays a drag queen... and I'm surprised he looks as good as he does in drag." - Adam Rapp
"thanks, abba. now i'll forever have an image of you as a tattoed hardcore straightedge grrl savaging people in the mosh pit." - papalovesmambo
"Yeah Abba. All the filthy crap you spew out there on those boards. I for one, am equally shocked. :-P" - AnnaK
#4
Posted: 4/18/07 at 1:03am
Well, since being unemployed and having no money to go do something, I have oodles of time to think about it.
"They're eating her and then they're going to eat me. OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!" -Troll 2
#5
Posted: 4/18/07 at 1:05am
i'm in the same boat.... almost.
i'm unemployed right now (hopefully only for a few more weeks)...
i have some money saved up, but i have no car to go out to the mall or movies or anything.
i'm unemployed right now (hopefully only for a few more weeks)...
i have some money saved up, but i have no car to go out to the mall or movies or anything.
Less is more
Ugly is beautiful
"My brother plays a drag queen... and I'm surprised he looks as good as he does in drag." - Adam Rapp
"thanks, abba. now i'll forever have an image of you as a tattoed hardcore straightedge grrl savaging people in the mosh pit." - papalovesmambo
"Yeah Abba. All the filthy crap you spew out there on those boards. I for one, am equally shocked. :-P" - AnnaK
Ugly is beautiful
"My brother plays a drag queen... and I'm surprised he looks as good as he does in drag." - Adam Rapp
"thanks, abba. now i'll forever have an image of you as a tattoed hardcore straightedge grrl savaging people in the mosh pit." - papalovesmambo
"Yeah Abba. All the filthy crap you spew out there on those boards. I for one, am equally shocked. :-P" - AnnaK
#6
Posted: 4/18/07 at 1:09am
Yes.
The answer to that question is the reason I quit theatre
The answer to that question is the reason I quit theatre
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#7
Posted: 4/18/07 at 1:11am
Time to fill the cup.
Listen to your inner voice, what do you really want to do?
I do know how you feel as I went through various readjustments of priorities.
I found my underlying drive and my path--but it was hard, there was no one to guide me because the path was unusual. I would try to talk about it and ask people for advice, but there really wasn't anybody to give it to me or answer my questions. I had to go out and search and find the answers. When I found them, though, I found a lot more than the answers.
People view life in different ways. Some see set goals and some see it as a journey, a becoming.
You may be changing, in process of change of direction, and that is okay.
Listen to your inner voice, what do you really want to do?
I do know how you feel as I went through various readjustments of priorities.
I found my underlying drive and my path--but it was hard, there was no one to guide me because the path was unusual. I would try to talk about it and ask people for advice, but there really wasn't anybody to give it to me or answer my questions. I had to go out and search and find the answers. When I found them, though, I found a lot more than the answers.
People view life in different ways. Some see set goals and some see it as a journey, a becoming.
You may be changing, in process of change of direction, and that is okay.
#8
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:14am
I have been discussing this with my friends a lot the last couple of days...but then again we might just be typical college students, who all feel like that.
#9
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:14am
DJ - your answer is simple - move.
I KNOW it wouldn't be easy - in some ways seemingly impossible. But people do it all the time, because the adage is true: Where there's a will, there's a way.
You need to MOVE! (perhaps in more ways than one?)
I KNOW it wouldn't be easy - in some ways seemingly impossible. But people do it all the time, because the adage is true: Where there's a will, there's a way.
You need to MOVE! (perhaps in more ways than one?)
#10
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:23am
Yes.
Yes yes yes...
I have a frustrating, exhausting career than pays near nothing, is totally thankless and most time futile -- and I love it --
career wise I am quite content.
However, since April 2001 I have wept and worried and second-guessed pretty much everything in my personal life, I never sleep, only eat to survive, never go out, and have turned into a recluse. I live in a state of self-loathing over a divorce that maybe shouldn't have happened and then sat mutely by while ex-hubby panicked from fear of loniliness and moved with with the first girl he met (on a blind date I might add).
But then other days -- I know it was for the best, we were opposites in every way....but then I lie there thinking if that's true and I know it then how come I have not made one effort to date? Heck, or even do something simple like basic grooming...split ends, unruly eyebrows, unshaven legs.. have become the norm...I used to be a reasonably attractive woman...and now I just resemble some shell of my former self...
That's probably far more information than anyone really wanted to know about my dysfunctional personal life, sorry.
Yes yes yes...
I have a frustrating, exhausting career than pays near nothing, is totally thankless and most time futile -- and I love it --
career wise I am quite content.
However, since April 2001 I have wept and worried and second-guessed pretty much everything in my personal life, I never sleep, only eat to survive, never go out, and have turned into a recluse. I live in a state of self-loathing over a divorce that maybe shouldn't have happened and then sat mutely by while ex-hubby panicked from fear of loniliness and moved with with the first girl he met (on a blind date I might add).
But then other days -- I know it was for the best, we were opposites in every way....but then I lie there thinking if that's true and I know it then how come I have not made one effort to date? Heck, or even do something simple like basic grooming...split ends, unruly eyebrows, unshaven legs.. have become the norm...I used to be a reasonably attractive woman...and now I just resemble some shell of my former self...
That's probably far more information than anyone really wanted to know about my dysfunctional personal life, sorry.
"I'm a one-eyed Mormon Democrat from conservative Arizona, and you can't have a higher handicap than that."
~The ever-great and fabulous Morris K. Udall.
#11
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:27am
Actually, Rad, that's all interesting and good to know.
When I'm next in the Phoenix area, I'm kidnapping you and taking you OUT! Do you like Blues music? One of my favorite places ever - The Rhythm Room - is on Camelback and 12th (ish.)
You need some life in your life!
When I'm next in the Phoenix area, I'm kidnapping you and taking you OUT! Do you like Blues music? One of my favorite places ever - The Rhythm Room - is on Camelback and 12th (ish.)
You need some life in your life!
#12
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:34am
DG--I would LOVE to move but right now I just can't. Financially, I wouldn't be able to survive and I keep wondering that if I actually DO move . . . will I really be happier? I would be in a strange place with no friends and there is no telling if my situation would get any better. **CRIES**
"They're eating her and then they're going to eat me. OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!" -Troll 2
#13
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:37am
DG - Kidnapping? Whoa you're going to have to give me at least a 4 hour warning -- I was in no way exaggerating about the state of my appearance. Nope haven't been there but I have driven past it many times....
"I'm a one-eyed Mormon Democrat from conservative Arizona, and you can't have a higher handicap than that."
~The ever-great and fabulous Morris K. Udall.
#14
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:39am
I think my biggest problem is that I have no one to relate to in my "real" life. I mean, I relate to my wife but she doesn't like theatre much at all so I can't have discussions with her about it or her get excited when a show comes near me. Really, besides my wife . . . I have no friends. The friends I did have moved away and now I don't feel a connection with anyone else. Is it sad that I consider some of you closer than the people I see in my everyday life? Ugh, I just don't know.
"They're eating her and then they're going to eat me. OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!" -Troll 2
#15
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:39am
spiderdj82 -- if I may inquire what line of business are you in? And what area of the country do you currently live in?
"I'm a one-eyed Mormon Democrat from conservative Arizona, and you can't have a higher handicap than that."
~The ever-great and fabulous Morris K. Udall.
#16
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:40am
DJ - Ok then, then get off your butt and go get another job - you're sitting around and THINKING TOO MUCH! If nothing else, go work in the yard and expend some energy in the earth - trust me, it's a good thing.
And Rad, it takes 5 hours to get there, so our timing should be perfect! And it isn't important what you LOOK like, just that you're ready to let go and dance!
And Rad, it takes 5 hours to get there, so our timing should be perfect! And it isn't important what you LOOK like, just that you're ready to let go and dance!
#17
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:41am
Well, as of right now I am not in any kind of business (unemployed). But, when I did work it was as an Administrative Assistant at a medical facility. I was not happy doing that, but that was all there was to do around me. I live in South Carolina.
"They're eating her and then they're going to eat me. OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!" -Troll 2
#18
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:41am
DG - I'm holding y'all to that.
"I'm a one-eyed Mormon Democrat from conservative Arizona, and you can't have a higher handicap than that."
~The ever-great and fabulous Morris K. Udall.
#19
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:44am
DG--Trust me, I have been trying. I send AT LEAST one or two resumes out a week and I have only had one interview. And I live in an apartment complex, so there is no "yard" to speak of. We only have one car at the moment, so my wife takes uses it to get to and from work. I know I am being a "Debbie Downer" but that is just how I feel right now.
"They're eating her and then they're going to eat me. OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!" -Troll 2
#20
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:46am
spiderdj82 -- get a job at Lowe's or Home Depot, Great Indoors someplace like that...
You'll learn a ton of useful stuff and get discounts on home improvement materials -- I am with DG, just get a job it will alleviate the eminent pressure of trying to find something more permanent.
You'll learn a ton of useful stuff and get discounts on home improvement materials -- I am with DG, just get a job it will alleviate the eminent pressure of trying to find something more permanent.
"I'm a one-eyed Mormon Democrat from conservative Arizona, and you can't have a higher handicap than that."
~The ever-great and fabulous Morris K. Udall.
#21
Posted: 4/18/07 at 2:47am
*sigh*
DJ - you just need to be tougher with yourself, and make some choices! You're wallowing, so of course you're spiralling downward. But you don't HAVE to! You're talented and capable - you're just frozen because you're not accepting that. Just go DO something! If it's wrong, it will be apparent and you can stop - but it will be better than lying around and beating yourself up.
Don't MAKE me send Etta out there! She may have lost weight, but she'll STILL whoop your little butt
And Rad - taking people out to have fun is what I LIVE for!
DJ - you just need to be tougher with yourself, and make some choices! You're wallowing, so of course you're spiralling downward. But you don't HAVE to! You're talented and capable - you're just frozen because you're not accepting that. Just go DO something! If it's wrong, it will be apparent and you can stop - but it will be better than lying around and beating yourself up.
Don't MAKE me send Etta out there! She may have lost weight, but she'll STILL whoop your little butt
And Rad - taking people out to have fun is what I LIVE for!
#22
Posted: 4/18/07 at 3:02am
For what it's worth, a very good friend gave me very good advice about moving. I had ended a relationship, was unhappy at my job, yadda yadda, and I just wanted to leave the NW immediately. He said to be careful and not move to escape something, because that will follow you around, but move towards something, a new opportunity. Alas, I stayed, and even though moving is still in the back of my head, the sense of urgency is gone, I like my job again, and I'm in no hurry. I know that when I move, it'll be for the right reasons.
As for figuring out what it's all about... it's about YOU. Whatever you decide to make it about. Even the tough times can be times or great growth, though I don't believe those are the only times of growth.
And I am actually closer to my friends here than I am with people that live near me.
As for figuring out what it's all about... it's about YOU. Whatever you decide to make it about. Even the tough times can be times or great growth, though I don't believe those are the only times of growth.
And I am actually closer to my friends here than I am with people that live near me.
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Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. - Randy Pausch
Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. - Randy Pausch
#23
Posted: 4/18/07 at 3:05am
"As for figuring out what it's all about... it's about YOU."
Amen, DD! And as for the first part of your post, I always have in my mind the phrase "no matter where you go, there you are." Simple, but true.
I just know DJ's not happy there, mostly because there really isn't opportunity for what he wants to do. But you can always take steps.
Amen, DD! And as for the first part of your post, I always have in my mind the phrase "no matter where you go, there you are." Simple, but true.
I just know DJ's not happy there, mostly because there really isn't opportunity for what he wants to do. But you can always take steps.
#24
Posted: 4/18/07 at 10:52am
"Stop worrying where you're going, move on. If you can know where you going, you've gone. Just keep moving on."
Not necessarily in the physical sense, as DG is suggesting (although it's always an option to do that). But keep moving on through life. Take steps forward to change the things you aren't happy with. Move one step at a time.
I was working as an executive assistant. My "pay the bills" job, for nearly seven years. I decided to take classes in Photoshop, Illustrator, QuarkExpress, HTML, etc., since I was working in a Communications Dept. I didn't know where it would lead, but I knew it was creative, and something that I wanted to learn. It was an opportunity that interested me, even though it had no goal attached.
A few years later, a friend of mine decided to try me out as a junior designer working on DVD menus. I was hired two weeks later full time. I took classes in After Effects animation, because it interested me. I studied video and audio production on-the-job, and was promoted to supervisor, then producer, then senior producer in charge of all interactive media. I now oversee a team of art directors, designers, editors, animators, programmers and production artists.
Did I know that was where I was headed? Hell no! When I took those classes, DVDs hadn't been INVENTED yet. (They just turned ten years old here in America last month, and I've been working on them for the past 7 1/2 years.)
Now that I have this "big career," am I totally happy? No. I'm looking for what's next too. That's human nature. So, I'm looking inside to find things that interest me, and I'm taking steps to learn more about them. I have no idea where that will lead me. I'm not looking for the Finish Line, I'm concentrating on the next step (only).
Try new things, learn as much as you can about the things that interest you. It will open doors that "haven't been invented yet."
Too often people get obsessed with seeing themselves fully arrived, not realizing that it's a slow process to get there. Concentrate on the process not the goal(s). And before you know it, you'll be somewhere in life you never imagined.
*steps off soap box*
I think our purpose in life is to "live." I know I'm way oversimplifying... but we're here to learn, absorb and process. "Why" I don't know yet. I'll leave the "why" to later... but... We have the ability to reason and interpret. And we have ability to share what we learn with others. We can do that through work, art, family and community. That is our purpose in life.
Not necessarily in the physical sense, as DG is suggesting (although it's always an option to do that). But keep moving on through life. Take steps forward to change the things you aren't happy with. Move one step at a time.
I was working as an executive assistant. My "pay the bills" job, for nearly seven years. I decided to take classes in Photoshop, Illustrator, QuarkExpress, HTML, etc., since I was working in a Communications Dept. I didn't know where it would lead, but I knew it was creative, and something that I wanted to learn. It was an opportunity that interested me, even though it had no goal attached.
A few years later, a friend of mine decided to try me out as a junior designer working on DVD menus. I was hired two weeks later full time. I took classes in After Effects animation, because it interested me. I studied video and audio production on-the-job, and was promoted to supervisor, then producer, then senior producer in charge of all interactive media. I now oversee a team of art directors, designers, editors, animators, programmers and production artists.
Did I know that was where I was headed? Hell no! When I took those classes, DVDs hadn't been INVENTED yet. (They just turned ten years old here in America last month, and I've been working on them for the past 7 1/2 years.)
Now that I have this "big career," am I totally happy? No. I'm looking for what's next too. That's human nature. So, I'm looking inside to find things that interest me, and I'm taking steps to learn more about them. I have no idea where that will lead me. I'm not looking for the Finish Line, I'm concentrating on the next step (only).
Try new things, learn as much as you can about the things that interest you. It will open doors that "haven't been invented yet."
Too often people get obsessed with seeing themselves fully arrived, not realizing that it's a slow process to get there. Concentrate on the process not the goal(s). And before you know it, you'll be somewhere in life you never imagined.
*steps off soap box*
I think our purpose in life is to "live." I know I'm way oversimplifying... but we're here to learn, absorb and process. "Why" I don't know yet. I'll leave the "why" to later... but... We have the ability to reason and interpret. And we have ability to share what we learn with others. We can do that through work, art, family and community. That is our purpose in life.
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#25
Posted: 4/18/07 at 10:59am
my advice to you *belch* is to start drinking heavily.
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pray to st. jude
i'm a sonic reducer
he was the gimmicky sort
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