Love Dillemma...Any help??

First off, I feel extremely stupid posting this, but what the hell, here it goes.

I am 17 years old and live in the bible belt of the south (that will have some relevance later on) I am an openly gay student at my High School. The ONLY openly gay student that is, out of 800 kids. But anyways, there is this senior, who is the most gorgeous man I have ever laid eyes on. He is on the basketball and football team, but absolutely sucks at both sports. All of his friends would tell you the only reason he decided to play is to *try* and show off his masculinity. He is extremely metro-sexual, and definitely has gay tendencies. Most of his friends think he is gay, but he is still in denial about it.

Sometimes I wish I could just go up and talk to him, but I know it would weird him out, cause he knows I like him (don't ask how he knows, cause I have no idea) I just wish I could help him, ya know? He is the nicest kid ever, but tries to act really conservative and pretends to be a gay hater.

Sometimes I think I should just forget about all of it, and stop making myself think he is gay, but it is so weird the connection that we have together. For instance, I could take any route through our school to get to my classes, and somehow we always manage to run into each other. Another huge example is, last June i had a dream that he was chosen as the Knight of Cave Spring High School (the Knight is the single highest honor any student can recieve at Cave Spring) Before the Knighting ceremony I san the National Anthem like always....well.....on the first day of school, it turns out that he was indeed awarded the honor of The Knight. This is something that is kept a secret. No one knows who is nominated or who has been choses except for the principal. This certain instance was just way to ironic.

I could just be reading too far into things here, but for some reason I don't think I am.

Do any of you think I should persue this? Should I try and talk to him? Maybe just start off by seeing him in the hallway and saying "hi" or should I just leave it alone...

Please help if you can, it is greatly appreciated!

I knew someone would say something about college. I am 17 but I am a Junior still, which means I have another year and a half to go. Argh... Its just frustrating when you feel you will never find anyone to love.

I do agree with you, but it is even hard to befriend him, cause he seems to be uncomfortable around me. He will see me in the hallway and make firm eye contact with me, but then tries to get out my way. I make him nervous becuase I am what he is, and he still hasn't been able to grasp that...

I didn't ask if you were out to anyone at school or your family. That's also a factor. If you're not out to a lot of people, you potentially have a lot to lose in this.

I'm out to everyone basically. Those who want and need to know, know. So he knows I am gay, and that I like him...

OK. In that case, I take back what I said about putting yourself in a dangerous position. Just befriend him. And munk is right -- don't let it take over your life too much.

I guess this is the point where I tell my story. I was totally infatuated with one of my best friends' boyfriends when I was in high school. And like you, I was getting the vibes from him. His parents wouldn't let him date my friend because she was black. So I kinda became his Eponine, and helped him out (let him borrow my cell phone so he could call her without them knowing, etc.). I ended up becoming way more involved than I should have, and it cost me a lot of friendships and caused a lot of misery to myself. When I got to college, I never really thought of him much again.