I'm sorry, I know how you feel. My stylist moved out of state last year and when I got someone else in the salon to cut my hair, they managed to screw up a trim and turned my head into a nappy mess by the time I left (and I'm white!) I haven't gotten my hair in almost 10 months because of that, it's just too much effort to find a new stylist at this point.
Like a firework unexploded
Wanting life but never
knowing how