The Official Adam Pascal Love Thread, part three — Page 215

I'm not that emotional in general, but who knows how I'll react in the middle of what will obviously be a sobbing audience. If the cast are there for the screening, that could get pretty emotional for them too.

It took me a while to "get" Rent, so it may be the same for your mom. I originally bought the CD to hear Adam on it, and listened to the whole thing once, didn't care for the music all that much, and only listened to Adam's songs once in a while. Eventually I started listening to it as a whole and came to really love it. But it took quite a while.

Meanwhile, I cry at everything. And if I see someone crying, I can't help but join right in. Makes for some very emotional events. I ruined all of my graduation night photos because of this.

Heck, I'm in the middle of a Queer as Folk-a-thon... I've been crying for hours!

I react very emotionally to a lot of things. But, I've never cried at a movie. I've cried at a few shows. Never movies. But the first time I saw the trailer, I sobbed. I cried like a baby for at least an hour. And you know what? Three months later, if you ask me why I cried, I still can't even tell you why. I think that after how difficult it was for me to be okay with the movie, it just made me so happy to see something that was so, so beautiful... and that felt so right. This sounds silly, but this entire process of watching this movie come into being as much as I've been able to has brought so much into my life. It's done a lot for how I feel about the show, obviously. They're not sad tears. I don't think they ever were. It's just sort of this wall of emotion that's how I feel about the piece. And seeing it in a new way, working... that's just really, really beautiful.

I wish I could explain why, but I know I'll cry through the entire movie. I wish I could put it in terms that were more useful than 'it's so beautiful,' but I can't. It's just... it's here. It's finally, finally here. And maybe it's all so incredible that I can't do anything but cry. It's one of the strongest decidedly emotional responses we have.

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Updated On: 11/6/05 at 01:05 AM

That's a big reason why I'm kind of resisting the idea of going to see the movie alone - I know I'll be crying. I'm a very... touchy person (what's the adjective I'm going for here?). When I cry, I like to have somebody next to me (who I KNOW), so that I can have a hug, a hand squeeze, anything like that. I need it. Me, living alone, being emotional: not such a good thing.

ETA: I think it was just about a year. I discovered Rent, BWW, and learned about the movie in a very short period of time. It was a huge overload!

Updated On: 11/6/05 at 01:14 AM

I didn't cry when I saw the trailer. but right before I clicked the mouse, I got this really nervous feeling and then I got that feeling in my stomach but also in my body. It was intense seeing it for the first time and little bit scary, in a good way. I think I'll be very nervous before the movie and just completely taken over by it throughout it. It's consumed so many of my thoughts in all different ways, sometimes with strange connections, and I can't imagine the culmination of that.

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I think last week was exactly a year from when Anthony came to the boards. I was just so... afraid. I'll never forget waking up that morning and finding his post, and just being like "no, this can't be true." I don't think I wanted it to be true. I told him that... and now, now it's almost funny, a year later. But it took a lot for me to come around... and I think every time I see a clip from that movie, all of that comes back to me. An entire year's worth of fear, excitement, and happiness all at once. There's just a lot wrapped up in the entire thing that I'll never forget, never experience again, and... will mean the world to me forever.

In one sense, it's been really incredible... this year of following it all. And in that sense, it'll be a bit sad when it's all over -- and it almost makes me wish the days weren't passing by so quickly. But on the complete other hand, I just want to see it. All of the anticipation just gone.

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Updated On: 11/6/05 at 01:22 AM

I feel like I'll sort of figure "okay, now what?" I mean, what am I going to love being really excited about? It's been everywhere for us for an entire YEAR. That's weird to consider.

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Wow Em just told you this, but you made me realize it's my official one year anniv on BWW! Realized b/c I came through first finding out the original cast may be in the movie, then went to IMDB, which gave me the link to Anthony's thread here. Agreed, what a year.

And I never considered this, but you guys are making very strong points in seeing the movie alone...I mean, I am seeing it w/ my whole family the next day and I will see it many many times and discuss it...and I'm the kind of person that I guess turns everyone into fishbowls, always want to see other reactions, so maybe going myself will give me the best focus on the movie and the truest reaction of myself-not think of if I myself am crying or jumping or whatever, just do what I'm gonna do.

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Exactly, Emcee. There's the DVD special features, but that won't be the same. It'll be great if Adam gets cast in something else, whether movie or play, but it's hard to imagine another project that would carry the weight that this one has.

Enjoy, Allie. I'm off to bed, I think.

It's a first for me too Allie. I hadn't considered that point before, but it is the end of something which will also be weird in and of itself.

Good night Chloe!

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Way for me to have no patience..

Got my ticket. Row L of balcony, seat 3. Where are you guys who got your tickets already?

Off to sell my Bloomie tickets on Ebay...

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I'm gonna get mine tomorrow, hopefully.

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She looks the best I've ever seen her.

Here's a link to RichardSF's review on CB - no spoilers and definitely worth reading.
Renthead Review, no spoilers