The Official Adam Pascal Love Thread, part three- Page 214

[Chloe]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:48pm

That decided me - I just ordered a ticket. I figured you'd already gotten tickets yourself, Emcee.

Now I have a ticket to the free screening from Bloomies that's up for grabs.

[Atrias]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:48pm

Waitwait, to the premiere or the benefit?

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:51pm

The benefit screening.

I have an issue of who I'm going to go to this thing with. Like, someone sort of assumes that we're seeing the movie together, but... I have close friends who will be in town for this. I never, ever make firm plans, and I always get f*cked because people get upset with me for it. They think that me saying "that'd be nice" or something is a firm promise to do something together, when in fact, I don't make plans until very close to the actual event. I have no firm plans for the movie, so far as I'm concerned, and I know that people are going to end up upset with me. ugh.

Updated On: 11/6/05 at 11:51 PM

[Atrias]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:54pm

*patpat* Poor Em! Maybe you should just go alone. Then you won't feel like you're leaving anyone out.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:56pm

Ugh, that must be frustrating! I know it would be for me, because I hate hurting peoples' feelings, and I hate having people mad at me. But, I'm sure you're going to be seeing the movie more than once, so can't you see it with different people different times?

[Chloe]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:58pm

It sounds like you're not non-commital enough. "I'll get back to you" or "I'm not sure about my plans yet" might be clearer. Going with your best friend sounds nice.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/5/05 at 11:59pm

That's true. I could just order one ticket right now and that'd be the end of it. I know that someone who thinks I made firm plans with her will be really disappointed, but I've been hard pressed for a really long time to just come out and be like "this claim? It doesn't exist." And like... i just want to enjoy the movie. I shouldn't have to let my social dysfunctions get in the way of that. I don't want anyone to feel left out or uninvited, but I'm also very, very selfish about this experience. This isn't so people can tell me how cute it is, or so we can talk about it. This is just... it's about the movie. I will see it with different people at some various occasion, but the first time, I'm sorry, I can't be in two places at once. I feel bad, but people don't understand that I'm not a plan-maker. They wrongly assume that I've made some sort of committment to them, and then end up hurt. I just... I'm spontaneous.

Updated On: 11/6/05 at 11:59 PM

[Atrias]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:03am

I'm gonna go to bed now. 'Night, all!

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:04am

That's understandable, but if these people/this person really considers themselves/herself your friend(s), she/they'll understand how much this experience means to you and how important it is to you, and will understand you need to see it alone, if that's the way you feel about it. If you put it that way, no one should get hurt, unless they are really petty.

ETA~'Night Atrias!

Updated On: 11/6/05 at 12:04 AM

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:09am

I hope so, Elphie. It's also a social dysfunctional issue of... probably not an exact mutual understanding of what the relationship is. Like, one person thinking more of it than the other does -- which is also why these "plans" seem to firm, you know? It's a mess, and I should've taken care of it a while ago. The thing that rubs me the wrong way is that there are people who want to see it with me because they want to watch me react. They think it'll be cute to see me cry because I'm so proud, etc. While that's flattering, in a way, that's not what it should be about. I'm not an animal in a petting zoo, and that's sort of what I feel like sometimes. So, in a way, it's about what they can get out of experiencing it WITH me, rather than me wanting to do it alone. I just want to do it with people who don't have those sorts of expectations about it. I don't want to be on emotional display.

[Chloe]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:10am

Going alone might be your best bet for the very first time - no distractions. Anyway, I hope it works out the way you want.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:13am

I have this ideal vision of seeing it with people I'm close to, but just having silence when it's all over. I don't want to talk about it right away. Maybe the next day, maybe a few hours later. I'll just want to hug someone, I think. I'll probably want to run over and hug Anthony when it's all over. Crying, I'm sure. It's weird to me that I can sort of predict my emotional reaction. I know that my reaction will be very highly emotional, but I can sort of see how it's going to go. That's weird to me. *shrug* Ramble, I do.

Updated On: 11/6/05 at 12:13 AM

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:15am

Gah, that's so annoying! You're a human being, not a goldfish in a fishbowl, and if you cry because you're proud, that's great, but it's personal. And why would you want to sit next to a person who is sniffling throughout the whole movie anyway, even if it is "cute." I want to see the movie the first time with people who appreciate the material, so I'm not dragging random friends to go see it with me the first day. I'm going with some good friends who love the musical as well. Is there anyway you could see it with all of these people at the same time? I, for one, would reccommend just going by yourself the first time, like Chloe said. Just tell them that it's what feels "right," or something. Sure, they may be disappointed, but they'll get over it.

[Chloe]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:17am

You might surprise yourself too. I don't think I'll actually be able to see the "movie" the first time around, if you know what I mean.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:21am

I'm dense this evening, Chloe. Clarify?

Elphie, it's some... strange desire to live vicariously, maybe? Vicariously through everything that I've gone through in the past year in terms of the movie... and how seeing it is going to be the pinnacle of all of that? I know the experiences have been absolutely huge, but... I'm still not in a fishbowl. I don't really know what exactly the rationale is. Maybe it's got something to do with someone so emotional being there to balance out the over-zealous excitement? I have no idea. But... this is only going to happen once. I want it to be perfect.

Updated On: 11/6/05 at 12:21 AM

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:24am

*nod* Got it.
I have this strange feeling that I know this person. It just seems..familiar. *shrug* Wierd. It's none of my business.

[Chloe]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:28am

Sorry, I mean I'll be so busy looking at various details that I might not see the forest for the trees. For instance, I have no memory of the middle of that 24 hour play that Adam was in aside from him toying with various objects out of the box. Pathetic, I know.

And by surprising yourself, I meant your reaction to the movie might be totally different from what you imagine. However, I totally sympathize with your wish to not be someone's main entertainment for the evening. I would hate that if it were me.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:31am

Okay, am I the only one who is having wierd avatar problems? Half of them are not showing up.

[Chloe]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:34am

I'm seeing everything fine right now, but that's happened to me before. After a few minutes they come back.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:36am

They're better now!

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:36am

I think I'll cry. A lot. The trailer still gets me. We'll see.

I think I'll need to have seen it a few times to really... "get" it, though.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:39am

I think I'm going to be shivering the whole time, because that's what happens to me when I'm having a great theatre experience; I always get chills and can't stop shaking. I'm sure I'll be crying at some point as well.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:45am

awwwwwwww, Elphie!

I watched the original trailer today outside of Bloomingdales'. I had to try really hard not to cry when I was trying to get my mom to watch it. I just want her to understand.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:49am

Yeah, I'm a loser. When we were in the front row of Wicked, I was shaking SO much, my sister thought I was dying or something! I couldn't stop.

I think it's a mother thing, Em. I showed my mom the "Out Tonight" video and she just said "Don't let your sister see this," and "That seems like it was quite a night." *headdesk* Oh, mother.

[Alix7272]

Posted: 11/6/05 at 12:53am

I've never cried in a movie. Ever. I came very close in I Am Sam, but still no crying. So I don't know if I will for the Rent movie. I do get very attached though. Whenever I see romantic comedies, at the point when the main couple almost breaks up, I get this pit in my stomach and then when they get back together, I feel it in my stomach too. Sort of hard to explain but I tend to react internally and don't really cry.

I also vote for seeing it at the screening alone, unless you have someone to go with you who you want to experience it with and who you know will be able to be quiet afterwards. Just buy the ticket now. That's actually what I did. There's someone who might come with me, but I doubt it at the moment. I was worried it would sell out so I just bought my ticket one night and it felt really good afterwards to have it, and a bit surreal. It will be weird since I often feel awkward when alone and have never seen a movie alone, but the movie is all I need that night.