The Official Raúl E. Esparza "Spread the Love" Thread — Page 152

That's right. Because this board does not allow discussion of...

BOOTLEGS.

*scary squeal*

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I'm so used to LJ where no one cares. Ha!

Niiiice picture, gav.

Are you guys still here?

*nodnod*

I have work to do, but for some reason I feel sicker at night, so I really don't feel up to getting it done. So, I'm here.

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Why's your head about to explode? That's not good!

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Updated On: 10/2/05 at 10:17 PM

*pat pat*

It's okay, greatdct.

You know, I heard somewhere that if you drink two glasses of Gatorade that your headache will be cured almost instantly!

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Exciting night, guys? *sighs* I'll join you, Emcee, in avoiding work. I have an Italian quiz tomorrow morning that's kind of scaring me, but I'm still here.

Allie, read back! There are hot pictures to be seen!

Hee.

Nia, if you'd be so kind, check your e-mail. You can respond that way, or via PM.

The thing was.... it was okay. I mean, we were in a pretty sizable group, so the awkwardness was there.... but minimal. It was one of those situations where you know that you have nothing to say to each other, but at the same time, there's just so much to be said, yet you leave it be. I only stayed for about 45 minutes, and then I had to go, and I went around to say a personal goodbye. We hugged and whatnot, and I think it was sort of apparent that we are going to miss each other. It was odd to be, but she was just like "thank you." And that seemed like maybe it was okay. It was so hard not to be angry, as I often find the case when things boil down to what they truly are -- my anger is more often a wall I put up rather than meant to hurt someone. She's going to come visit for Barefoot in the Park, so it isn't goodbye. I think I'll be curious to see how much communication we keep up, but it wasn't as bad as it could've been.

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Updated On: 10/2/05 at 10:27 PM

Maybe. And I feel like with such a life-altering thing, that would be the nice thing to do. It's not that I don't care. It's just... weird to do.

These sorts of things are always the hardest things I've ever had to do. It makes me realize that I'll often fight so hard to keep a friendship going that things backfire, and I push so hard that I make things worse. One bad experience, and I'll fight to the death. I sort of just want to wall myself up and cry, but that fixes nothing.

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Updated On: 10/2/05 at 10:30 PM

Thanks, Elphie!

Do you have a Raul thread home? You can live next to thetheatrekook!

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Elph, what's wrong?

Em. She'll keep the door open.

Email checked.

Maybe I'll leave the window open.

What's the matter, Elphie?

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