The Official Raúl E. Esparza "Spread the Love" Thread- Page 152

[gavrochegirl]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 9:46pm

That's right. Because this board does not allow discussion of...

BOOTLEGS.

*scary squeal*

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 9:49pm

And we be well behaved!

[greatdct]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 9:50pm

I'm so used to LJ where no one cares. Ha!

[gavrochegirl]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 9:50pm

Right!

*halo suddenly appears and hovers above head*

[Allie]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:11pm

Niiiice picture, gav.

Are you guys still here?

[greatdct]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:13pm

My head's about to explode but I'm still here!

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:13pm

*nodnod*

I have work to do, but for some reason I feel sicker at night, so I really don't feel up to getting it done. So, I'm here.

[gavrochegirl]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:14pm

I'm here...and am eating a frozen fish stick dinner.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:17pm

Why's your head about to explode? That's not good!

Updated On: 10/2/05 at 10:17 PM

[greatdct]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:18pm

People are annoying. And I'm trying to organize the tracks of this audio and I am so confused. Haha

[gavrochegirl]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:19pm

*pat pat*

It's okay, greatdct.

You know, I heard somewhere that if you drink two glasses of Gatorade that your headache will be cured almost instantly!

[insomniak]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:21pm

Something tells me that that's not true, Gav.

I'll read back in a minute to see how Em's night went.

[Allie]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:21pm

Exciting night, guys? *sighs* I'll join you, Emcee, in avoiding work. I have an Italian quiz tomorrow morning that's kind of scaring me, but I'm still here.

[greatdct]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:22pm

Hmm. Maybe just advil.

[insomniak]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:23pm

Allie, read back! There are hot pictures to be seen!

Hee.

[Allie]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:25pm

You know, I just got a craving for Gatorade, and I've never actually been a huge fan of the stuff. Weird!

*looks back for hot pictures*

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:27pm

Nia, if you'd be so kind, check your e-mail. You can respond that way, or via PM.

The thing was.... it was okay. I mean, we were in a pretty sizable group, so the awkwardness was there.... but minimal. It was one of those situations where you know that you have nothing to say to each other, but at the same time, there's just so much to be said, yet you leave it be. I only stayed for about 45 minutes, and then I had to go, and I went around to say a personal goodbye. We hugged and whatnot, and I think it was sort of apparent that we are going to miss each other. It was odd to be, but she was just like "thank you." And that seemed like maybe it was okay. It was so hard not to be angry, as I often find the case when things boil down to what they truly are -- my anger is more often a wall I put up rather than meant to hurt someone. She's going to come visit for Barefoot in the Park, so it isn't goodbye. I think I'll be curious to see how much communication we keep up, but it wasn't as bad as it could've been.

Updated On: 10/2/05 at 10:27 PM

[insomniak]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:29pm

I'm glad to hear that, Emcee. Maybe in a few days you could IM her and just ask how things are going. You never know.

We talked about a few things and I do think she's changing.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:30pm

Maybe. And I feel like with such a life-altering thing, that would be the nice thing to do. It's not that I don't care. It's just... weird to do.

These sorts of things are always the hardest things I've ever had to do. It makes me realize that I'll often fight so hard to keep a friendship going that things backfire, and I push so hard that I make things worse. One bad experience, and I'll fight to the death. I sort of just want to wall myself up and cry, but that fixes nothing.

Updated On: 10/2/05 at 10:30 PM

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:38pm

*drags self in*
Well, I've just been through the blender.

Emcee, I'm glad it went okay. I suck at good-byes.

Nice av, gav!

[gavrochegirl]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:39pm

Thanks, Elphie!

Do you have a Raul thread home? You can live next to thetheatrekook!

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:39pm

Thanks. I sort of feel like I wish I had done more, but I know that's not plausible. I beat myself up too much over this, and I can't do it anymore. Come what may, I guess. And I hope that maybe things will fall back together in some different yet-okay way.

[insomniak]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:40pm

Elph, what's wrong?

Em. She'll keep the door open.

Email checked.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:41pm

No, I need one! Can you tell me what number I am? I feel like my head's about to implode, or explode, or something.

Hopefully things WILL work out between you guys. I mean, as people grow older, they change. It's a part of life. Hopefully it'll change for the better.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 10/2/05 at 10:42pm

Maybe I'll leave the window open.

What's the matter, Elphie?