The Official Raúl E. Esparza "Spread the Love" Thread — Page 158

You guys!!!! I have to read like 10 pages and I have only been gone like 5 hours.....C-R-A-Z-Y

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I need the link. Or an explanation! He's not allowed to talk about sex. It's bad for me.

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I really can't even begin to figure out what he meant, especially this early in the morning.

Rauuuuuuul....

And with that, my little storm cloud and I are off for another day in the Hell that has become my life. I'm sure something awful will happen today, too. And even if it's just a usual crappy Monday, if nobody dies, nobody leaves, or nobody decides they "hate" me, it'll be a step in the right direction. I won't ask for much.

Adieu, and have a good day, Lari.

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Updated On: 10/3/05 at 08:48 AM

Oh, everybody's so sad on this thread all of a sudden. I know that I'm happy, with that amazing new signature and that funny new picture that Chrys has. I hope everybody feels better and happier.

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Yes, that article should be shared.

I third that!

Hey folks...I'm just finishing breakfast-then I've got to start to get ready for school.

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I love this man.

God, he's just so... real. He makes everyone else look fake. Like a joke.

Thanks for sharing!

Updated On: 10/3/05 at 11:35 AM

Hi to anyone present.

No dice on the Chitty CD -- it was a mistake.

So far, no unusual tales to speak of. I'm still in a mood where I want to keep entirely to myself... I don't even want to return my mom's call. I wish I knew why, because I'm being very silly, but... I just want people to leave me alone.

But I did fairly well on my paper that I turned in last week, and when I'm in class I'm able enough to distract myself from the bad stuff, for the most part. I'm starting to feel a bit more relaxed, partially because there isn't anything I can *do* about these things, even though I wish there was. I have to accept that. Maybe my karma is on the road to recovery.

Gonna read this interview. yay.

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Updated On: 10/3/05 at 12:36 PM

Sad about the Chitty CD. But at least I didn't let myself get too excited.

And maybe you should just take this time and use it to figure things out. Maybe that's why you feel like you want to be alone... because you are still working things out in your head. Maybe? But I'm happy that things are getting even the slightest bit better for you.

I think you've hit the nail on the head. I think he thinks too much and too deeply about things that he can never just relax and let things happen. Not that it is a bad thing, really. I mean, I think more people should take the time and energy to see life and love and even sex the way that he does. I think that with the way he views life he is getting to reach the highest highs but also the lowest lows. If that even makes sense.

I think he might be a lot like Larson in the way that he has to give up a lot in his personal life to perform. Maybe he never will be 100% happy in the traditional sense of the word. He may never have a perfect marriage or kids or a Lexus. But at least he is finding a way to substitute those things with his acting. I just hope he is happy with whatever he decides.

Ah. He makes me think.

I absolutely adore this interview. I think it was taken at a really strange time for him. HIs wife was back in Miami, and he was here in New York. Living out his dream, but without her the one person he wanted to share it with most. Guys, he says she made him soar. That is probably the most romantic thing I've ever heard ever. He didn't say his acting, sex, or the Yankees made him soar, he said SHE made him soar. He's not complete without her. They are a unit. Sure, they are their own unique people, but she inspires, and pushes him to be his best. To not walk down the road half-assed, but to put everything you've got into walking down that road. She's back now, and I think that makes for a much happier Raul. And not just happier, but much more complete.

And your life isn't gonna always be a candy coated bowl of happiness. Not even for Raul Esparza. Everybody's sh*t stinks, and anyone can feel lonely and lost even though they are surrounded by eight million people. You're life isn't about the happiness you've had, or the sorrow. It's about the contribution you've made. Wether or not you've taken every single second in your life you have been given, and making the absolute most of it. It doesn't have to be grand, it just has to be lived. To the fullest. And Jonathan Larson got that. "No day but today." It's not just a tag line. And I think Raul gets that too.

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I think he has the most hauntingly beautiful spirit. But I also think he is a very confused man.

But the people that he lets into his life are very lucky. He seems like the kind of person that gives everything he has to the ones he loves. I just hope he's getting that in return.

I am also very thankful for the little bit of him that I have in my life. He makes me think and strive to be a better person. And that's rare.

Um. Rick Hilsabeck just told me that he goes on as Caractacus every Sunday night. Did anyone else know this? I guess Raúl can't or doesn't want to do the Sunday night shows. Weird.

With all the tickets I have bought, thank goodness none of them were for Sunday evening performances!

Ah. The Chitty schedule makes my head hurt.

Oh, and I don't have the Show People picture on my computer or I would share it!