Suddenly felt like posting this..
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The shell of me
I gaze upon a reflection, in the mirror so pale and drawn
The light, the love, the hope inside, now that's all gone
The eyes are cold and empty, hardened by the past
Staring back with no forgiveness, until I turn away at last
Unable to bear any longer, the accusations from within
Trying forget what's happened, and learn to live again
Moving on would be quite easy, but memories quickly remind
The fear of going through that again, doesn't easily fade with time
All she knows is that the last time, it hurt too much to bear
The love, the loss, the heartbreak, it's easier not to care
But that just leaves her lonely, and longing for something more
Wishing she could turn her heart back, to the innocence of before
She's seen the light before her, and it made emotions stir
The warmth in his smile and touch, they're calling out to her
The voice inside her is screaming, trying to make her see
If she could just get past the fear, imagine what could be
It will guide her from this darkness, she's lived too long alone
Remember all the beauty, her hearts not made of stone
Anger stirs inside me, how is it that she can still refuse to see
Then I realize the reflection is not some girl, it's the shell of me
"All work and no smut makes Cammy lose her edge." ~DG
"Someday I'm going to have a baby and I'm gonna name her L'il Mimi Marquez and I and will sing to her every day and when she's a toddler I will say "L'il Mimi Marquez, clad only in a bubble diaper, will perform her famous play pen handcuff dance to the sounds of breast milk being pumped!" ~Kringas