Okay, I wanna elaborate on my answer... I'm still at work but I have the free time now to clarify.
"It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
I have a somewhat similar situation, though my 'better half' isn't going to die. We've been really good friends a long time, love each other and are
in love with each other, but for circumstances beyond our control us being a couple just isn't in the cards (it's a really long story, but believe me we've tried). I can't say it's been easy for either one of us and lord knows I've had my share of times when I've hurt and I feel like I
have lost him (even though we're still very good friends)... But honestly? Even with all the hurt and all the BS and everything heartbreaking that has gone along with this, I wouldn't have traded our short span of time for anything in the world.
Sometimes people leave an imprint on your heart and even though you may not have that person anymore, it's something you'll always carry with you.
Okay, I'm done being sappy now. Back to work for me lol
"You're every gay man's wet dream!" ~ MA
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