Mikey, I knew the songs certainly alluded to the fact that he wanted to take his life. However from the sounds of it, the original staging had a image of him with a gun actually in hand. I was confused to as whether or not it was just blocking that made it seem like he was literally on the verge of killing himself or if there was a scene and/or song that made it very clear.
"Life in theater is give and take...but you need to be ready to give more then you take..."