#1
Posted: 8/5/05 at 5:30pm
Well, I know some of you think I am crazy lol jk.. but, I am beating my brains out to death. I can not think of ANYTHING I want to do more in my life than perform in any way,shape or form in the professional theater. It upsets me to even see actors whom I admire so much bitch about being tiresome in their les miz roles after a few short months in our favorite book on this board.. Even at Non Equity auditions, they type out now.. How is one to survive an accomplish a dream if they can't even get past the sign-in sheet? I know rejection is the biggest part of the business and it only helps me grow but, I feel depressed and I feel like I am dragging a lot of people down just wanting something so bad. My best friends call me Debbie Downer (the rachel dratch character from SNL) lately because I don't know what to do. Is it just luck?? Does anyone else here feel the same way? I honestly feel like Charlie Bucket in Willy wonka.. How he wants to find the golden ticket more then anyone else in the world.. I just want to get cast in something. I'd play a prop if I had to. Thanks for letting me vent a free bww therapy session.
xoxo
Amneris
xoxo
Amneris