SHEESH! I'm just trying to be nice. Before you revel in self-pity, it was a loooooooooooooong time before I ended up in this relationship with many horrific experiences along the way. You want to know my secret? I stopped looking. Ever looked for something you misplaced so hard, you could never find it? Then as soon as you stop trying, it's right in front of you. It was like that. I quit reading personal ads and going to the bars, clubs, chat rooms, websites, and any other places to try and find something (anything) that could provide me with even the smallest bit of intimacy or companionship. I stopped going on dates with guys I didn't really like just for the sake of going on a date. I stopped settling for one-sided relationships or f-buddies just to experience something that simulated partnership. I didn't resign myself to loneliness, but I did prioritize my life so that I could focus and excel at the things I could control so that I could be the best guy I could be when the best guy for me should come along. It worked. I honestly believe it was one of the major reasons Jarico and I are together. We had already known each other for a couple of years, but it wasn't until I had more solidly grounded myself that we started bonding.
"What can you expect from a bunch of seitan worshippers?" - Reginald Tresilian
Updated On: 10/1/04 at 01:55 PM