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Posted: 3/18/08 at 3:31pm
Excuse me while I vent........
So anyone ever been in a relationship where you always feel like you are the one putting in all the effort in.......like you are the one always needing more?
In every relationship I have been in that is the case for me.... I have been with my boyfriend for 8 years now and it has always been that way with us. He is a very analitical person and I am ran by my emotions. We are complete oposites... and I think we balance eachother out well, but sometimes I find myself freaking out over the smallest things.
For instance... our sex life is basically non-existant now...It has been that way for a few years now. He is 24 and I am 27. I am an EXTREMLY sexual person and always have been... and you would think a 24 year old would be always ready to go! Things were great at the begining , but now he doesnt put out!!! I am positive, and he isnt and I know that that may be a factor in it but, this was going on before I knew I was positive. Even when I suggest completly safe activities he's not into it, and when I ask him directly about the fact I'm positive he says it's not that. Because I dont get that sexual attention or physical attention at all from him ,my self esteem has gone to sh*t. When I bring it up the subject .. he always says its not me or the fact I'm positive , but what am I suppose to think?
Then .. I find myself getting jelouse over the smallest things. IT SUCKS! If he doesnt answer his phone or he gets a random myspace message, my mind goes to the worste possible scenario... I know it probably drives him nuts and its not fun for me to feel that way also.
I know that I obviously have and issue with my self esteem, but I only wish that he understood the way I feel.....
Just had to vent..... anyone been through the same type thing??
So anyone ever been in a relationship where you always feel like you are the one putting in all the effort in.......like you are the one always needing more?
In every relationship I have been in that is the case for me.... I have been with my boyfriend for 8 years now and it has always been that way with us. He is a very analitical person and I am ran by my emotions. We are complete oposites... and I think we balance eachother out well, but sometimes I find myself freaking out over the smallest things.
For instance... our sex life is basically non-existant now...It has been that way for a few years now. He is 24 and I am 27. I am an EXTREMLY sexual person and always have been... and you would think a 24 year old would be always ready to go! Things were great at the begining , but now he doesnt put out!!! I am positive, and he isnt and I know that that may be a factor in it but, this was going on before I knew I was positive. Even when I suggest completly safe activities he's not into it, and when I ask him directly about the fact I'm positive he says it's not that. Because I dont get that sexual attention or physical attention at all from him ,my self esteem has gone to sh*t. When I bring it up the subject .. he always says its not me or the fact I'm positive , but what am I suppose to think?
Then .. I find myself getting jelouse over the smallest things. IT SUCKS! If he doesnt answer his phone or he gets a random myspace message, my mind goes to the worste possible scenario... I know it probably drives him nuts and its not fun for me to feel that way also.
I know that I obviously have and issue with my self esteem, but I only wish that he understood the way I feel.....
Just had to vent..... anyone been through the same type thing??
