Oh, You, I'm sorry. I know you've been through hell in the past couple of weeks. I've only been trying to cheer you up.
But I think you should keep in mind that it is hard for us to make healthy choices when we are experiencing deep emotional trauma. I fear that one day you might wake up and see little "Balt" curled up in a ball, snoozing in the sunlight and say to yourself, "Oh, Sidney J. Mussburger, I love you."
Think about it. I beseech you.
"Be on your guard! Jerks on the loose!"
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