I Enjoy Being a Girl Vol 2! — Page 160

danmag, that's awesome! I would love to be able to run a marathon...and I'll take a mojito, thank you!


Piano, I got the Christmas Cookie candle. I'm burning it now!

Schmerg, that's awesome! Congrats!

Star, I can't really drink White Zin, so I'll bring you your own bottle and I'll stick with the Pinot Grigio! Just don't tell the cops.

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WTG Schmergy!!!!!!

Yay Schmerg!
If theatre has taught me anything it's like "don't talk to strangers" may be just a guideline ;0)

Stockard - Sounds like a plan, a sneaky plan <3

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StockardFan,
I'm really not supposed to add adults on FaceBook that my parents don't know (that's the short version of the story).

Schmerg,
Congrats!!!!!!! I can only imagine how exciting it must be to get such nice recognition for your performance. Continue knocking em' dead, girl! If I had a teleporter, I'd be there right now.

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seriously, danmag. That is so impressive. Has he run marathons before?

He's run half marathons before, but not full...He just finished - his time was 5 hours and 4 minutes. YAY! He said he feels fine, but his legs are really, really tired and sore.

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Congrats to your hubby! He's probably going to take a 5 hour and 4 minute shower, as well!

Today I'm going to a swim meet. That means boys in speedos. Awkward!!! Wish me luck.

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Reverse Catch up -- It's been a month and a week since I last posted and oh my my my... I'm sorry for leaving again BUT
10/14-10/28 -I was ridiculously sick and had midterms and was still working my job on top of that.. if I ever came home it was to go to bed.
10/29-10/31 - I was drunk out of my mind and didn't know how to operate a computer. I actually didn't keep track of how much I had to drink on Halloween and ended up blacking out
11/01 - 11/10 - I had to leave the city to go home because my aunt who has been in vegetative state since February 2008 passed away and we had the funeral, etc.
11/11-11/17 - Spent studying for my development exam and working on 2 presentations and a paper
11/17-11/20 - worked every shift at work this week, totaling 21 hours on top of classes. oh my my my...
11/20-11/21 - after studying all last week and working all this week, Drink Drank Drunk. I could not manage to say that words spill beer, I kept saying speer bill...

11/22 Here I am. Confused as to where my first semester of junior year has gone, I've got like...3 weeks left. just what the hell? I missed you all terribly and hate that I keep disappearing :[

oh and during this time, after I had the crush on the douchebag my age ... I kind of got a ridiculous crush on one of the teachers at the elementary school I work with who happens to be 15 years older than me... and it got kind of intense for me as we got to be actual friends, but it finally fell out of me this past monday when we were talking about men and women sexuality and he said he is not a commitment man he just likes to "fill in the blanks"

Updated On: 11/22/09 at 07:26 PM

shhh...............I was wondering where you've been? Welcome back!

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Newgirl- I saw a therapist for quite a while in a college and even as recently as last year. I think there's nothing wrong with trying to help yourself to be happier. If you don't want to be mocked, don't tell your parents. But people who haven't been in the situation often don't understand. I think that it wouldn't hurt everybody to go to a therapist once in a while. But here's what I warn people. It's not as easy as just talking and feeling better. You have to really dig deep and get into feelings and topics that you may not really want to address. I always say things get messier before they get better, but if you work hard to be honest with yourself, it's totally worth it. But there's nothing wrong with want to make yourself happier. It's such an energy-drainer to be self-conscious all the time. I know that first hand. I used to be REALLY hard on myself. Like if I made any mistake or messed up at all I would just berate myself. Can I tell you how lovely it is not to do that anymore? It's so nice to be free of that.

I say go for it if you really think it will help. :)

Thanks for your words, ladies. I wish you both the best of luck with your therapists as well. I do feel like it's a midlife crisis of sorts.

I'm realizing that I want a relationship so badly, that I've convinced myself that it is the only way I can be happy. It's as if I'm putting my life "on hold" until I meet a man. I don't want to be that way!

My self-esteem issues are all wrapped up in my weight issues, too. I definitely see my extra pounds as my security blanket of sorts. You know, I won't get hurt if no one is attracted to me or I get defensive and think it doesn't matter what I look like...people worth my time will like me despite my appearence. Which, in a way, is a healthy attitude, but not when I don't like how the extra weight makes me feel, both physically and emotionally.

I do want to do a little more research into psychologists and I found a couple on my insurance website.

I feel good about my decision to talk to someone. I feel like I'm aware of what my issues are; I just don't know how to deal with them.