I read the initial post in this thread the first day it was put up and have avoided it since. It causes me to ermeber an incident iw as involved in. Many years ago I was the passanger in a car which was hit by a kid racing down a steep hill on his bike. After all this time it still makes me feel very sick to recall seeing this 10 year old boy come through the windshield and land pratically in my lap.
So, I know exactly how you must feel. It is something that can effect you for years and you should be prepared for that. The suggestions made here about seeking counseling are very good ones and you may want to consider that especially if you feel any after effects.
The kid who came through the windsheild did survive, fortunately, but it was horrible to witness. The windshield tore off part of the side of his neck. As I sat there in shock, with this child hanging into the car bleeding onto my lap, I remebre looking up and seeing part of his flesh hanging from the broken glass. The strange thought that went through my mind was taht it looked like raw chicken skin. To this day, I cannot buy chicken with skin on it, cannot even look at in the supremarket and will vomit if I see someone cutting away the skin on raw chicken. Initially, I would faint when watching someone do that. So,many years later, I have forgotten the incident unless it's brought up and forget why I have this aversion to looking at raw poultry. It happens and I don't think of why until someone brings up teh subject of accidents.
It may sound in that last part like I am making light of the occurance but, belive me, far from it. I just wanted to illustrate how the starngest thoughts can come into a persons mind when they are shocked like that and how it can continue to effect you in a way that may seem unrelated and how you may not realize why. Watch for things like that.
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