Okay I had an epiphany(ha ha, Sweeney) today...
I've seriously been playing my clarinet the last 3 hours since whenever my last post was...I played Wicked highlights, Miss Saigon highlights, where I was able to fill in some note,s and played through WSS by memorization. Now, there's a song the Rumble in West Side Story which has crazy high notes that are all over the place and wants you to play everything as fast as humanly possible, and I mean humanly possible.
Both times I've played the actual show, we've played it much slower. But recently, I've tried to get it more uptempto, and...I got it today! Still will have a bit of a mistake here or there but I played the Rumble the way Bernstein wrote it
And then I realized how much I love playing and it hit me...why the hell aren't I double majoring in music? So that's what I'm gonna do. I'm still "planning" to go to grad school for psych, and if nothing else a college degree in music will certainly help me get some community/regional/high school pit gigs...and I leave the door open for...music to go further. Who knows?
I'm very happy now.
"If there was a Mount Rushmore for Broadway scores, "West Side Story" would be front and center. It snaps, it crackles it pops! It surges with a roar, its energy and sheer life undiminished by the years" - NYPost reviewer Elisabeth Vincentelli