In every school or theatre I've performed at, the stage lights have been so bright that I can't see the audience at all, but I have to admit, I really am conscious of the audience. I'm a much better performer when there are more people there, especially people whose opinions matter to me, because I'm an insufferable show-off. So if I'm auditioning in front of the people I'm up against, I tend to do a lot better than if I'm just auditioning for the director.
I was in one show that only had six performances, and my friend, who I'll call Crawford (that's not his real name, I just think it's a hilarious name) told me he'd come to my second-to-last performance. I was really excited because I don't get to see Crawford very often, and I think he's a great performer, and knowing he was in the audience, I did the best show I've done in my life. I was basically performing to him. When I bowed, I got a lot more applause and cheers than at any other show, so I assumed it was Crawford cheering.
Well, I get home and there's a message on the answering machine from Crawford saying he couldn't make it and he'd be at the next day's show instead. I guess Crawford is my equivalent of Dumbo's feather.
In my pants, she has burst like the music of angels, the light of the sun! --Marius Pantsmercy