JerseyGirl, cool Irish/Cherokee lady, I just read your post about the kind of kid you were and your kiss with Emmy. The way you expressed that memory was beautiful, amazing, touching. You have a lot of talent as a writer, I'm thinking, and the ability to move hearts with words. And thank you for sharing that.
As for turning 30 - 30 is a rosebud with the dew still sparkling on it. Enjoy it completely, you are VERY young!!!
I learned this in Catholic school - "God is love, and he who abides in live abides in God, and God in him."
Here's another one I learned. "In My Father's house are many mansions."
Salmon leap from the womb of the white sea you look on; they are calves, they are lambs of good color, in peace without slaughter.