I Enjoy Being a Girl Vol 2!- Page 143

[Schmerg_The_Impaler]

Posted: 10/18/09 at 12:28am

This was the WEIRDEST and BEST homecoming ever! There were two fire drills because the fog machine made the fire alarms go off, and we had to stand outside in the pouring rain as fire engines pulled up at the school. My date, my best friend, and her date (who is my date's best friend and one of my best friends since first grade) decided to break into the auditorium and sing and dance on the stage. We did a lot of Les Mis and Phantom of the Opera. Then the security guards came in, yelled at us a lot, and kicked us out. Hahahaaaaa... it was just extremely fun because I was hanging out with my little gang of people who I've known since I was six or seven and we could all totally be ourselves without feeling remotely self-conscious.

Jazzy, I just have to tell you-- you express yourself really eloquently. It looks like you're a really mature, intelligent guy who knows himself very well. And I hope your friends and family won't let your coming out change that. I have a feeling that a lot of them will say "I know" when you tell them, because that's usually what happens, but I really hope everything goes smoothly when you do decide to tell them.

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/18/09 at 10:08am

Schmerg, the image of you guys singing on stage in the auditorium is cracking me up.

[AndAllThatJazz22]

Posted: 10/18/09 at 9:13pm

Schmerg, you need to crash my senior prom. Stockard can come, but if the fruit punch somehow gets spiked... Stockard might end up being a little TOO much fun. That homecoming sounds hilarious and it almost makes me want to go to more school dances (I usually only go to 1 a year. NONE of my friends ever go to them and I always end up being the loner at the fruit punch stand). I'm pretty sure my school security guard would chop off heads if me and my friends did that, and when I read your story I imagined the look he would have on his face. It would look like the top left picture on your avatar (which is my personal favorite *wink wink nudge nudge*).

Stockard,
Thanks! You're right, I always think of how I shouldn't hurry, but I never think of how I shouldn't put it off for no reason. There's no reason for me to hide so much of myself from everyone, but I still have to be careful with who knows what and when I tell them. I feel confident that I will do the right thing, though. I used to hide SO many things about me from my friends because I was worried that they'd think it was 'too gay', but now I've learned that that is not the right way to live my life. My friends have to love me for who I am, and if they don't.... they aren't my friends. I don't think I'll be fully 'out' by the end of the school year, but I want to be the REAL me by the end of the year. Instead of being high school-ized Jazzy, I want to be the real Jazzy. The real Jazzy drinks tea every morning, listens to showtunes, plays the violin, watches 'Real Housewives' shows, spends excessive hours at America Eagle (That's actually a new obsession. Literally, I just started obsessively shopping there this month), reads gossip columns, watches CNN, and screams Broadway songs in the shower. I try SO hard to hide that because I don't wanna be made fun of.. but I'm going to stop hiding that now. I NEED to be the REAL me in front of my friends, and I'm also going to have to learn to live with it when they drift apart from me for being 'too gay'. There's no way I can EVERY be 'out and proud' if I can't show my friends and family the real me first.

Schmerg (again),
That was really sweet, thank you. I try to be as eloquent as I can, and I never thought I was doing a good job. I just make so many darn typos! To be honest, I really never thought of myself as someone who knows himself well. On the contrary, I learn something new about me everyday. Sometimes it's by listening to music, by watching theatre, or even by reading BWW. I think it's mainly because I've always been a person who was worried to come to people for advice... DEEP advice, not "What will this party be like?" advice. I always found the answers by searching deep inside of myself. There's really no reason why I should be scared to come to others for advice. I trust my parents, I have some wise friends, and I have a great guidance councelar (sp?) at my school. It's probably because I'm insanely stubborn (as witnessed by my "I WILL QUIT THEATRE BECAUSE I WILL BE BEATEN OFF OF MY THRONE AND FORCED TO BE IN THE FILTHY, AWFUL CHORUS EVEN THOUGH I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN THE CHORUS AND I SHOULDN'T JUDGE... AND AUDTIOIONS HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED YET!" meltdown a few pages back on this thread).

Now I feel kind of guilty because I have taken up two posts to talk about myself and my problems, so to make this post seem a little less self indulgent ... I will end it with a gorgeous human being by the name of "James Marsden" singing "The Nicest Kids and Town". (I'm sorry... watching him sing and dance only makes him look MORE 'talented')
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLvs97b5k8E

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 4:17pm

Jazzy, that's what we're here for...don't ever feel guilty for talking about your life with us!

OK, on a side note.....13 DAYS UNTIL MY DAUGHTRY CONCERT!!! Here is a picture of the stage set!

[danmag]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 4:35pm

Stock, do you have great seats??? You better have front row!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 4:41pm

No it's general admission on the floor and my husband is an old fuddy duddy. We asked for best available, but the seats aren't really that great.

[danmag]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 6:11pm

And the hubby's going??? Come on!!! You could have used your charms to get backstage!!!!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 6:16pm

Believe me I'm hoping he gets called away on business and I get to bring a girlfriend. But he does really like them and has never seen them, and he's paying for the tickets....so what could I say?

And unfortunately (but good for them) I think they've passed the stage where it's going to be easy to meet/hang out with them again. Since they are all married (seemingly very happily) I don't think they have groupies hanging out backstage.

Dammit.

[danmag]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 6:21pm

Damnit is right....if only it were the late 80's/early 90's again......


Ah, the joys of stalking boys in bands....good times. Good times.

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 6:26pm

I know. Nostalgia........

God I miss my groupie days.

[Weez]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 6:37pm

Is it just me, or does this sound great?

http://www.guardian.co.uk/stage/2009/oct/19/murder-game-battersea-arts-centre

I was going to be so well-behaved and not buy many theatre tickets this month. I started off with three, now I'm up to five... D:

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/19/09 at 6:43pm

That DOES look good, Weez!

[clever name]

Posted: 10/20/09 at 8:33pm

I have nothing to add here..I just wanted to post something because I can.



(I still can't get BWW at work so it sucks)

[justagirl2]

Posted: 10/20/09 at 8:40pm

Me too! We're slacking on this thread lately. Sadness.

[withoutlovewithoutU]

Posted: 10/20/09 at 9:10pm

Well, I will update you guys on my boy drama...

Told the guy that I liked him and such via facebook 4 days ago, well he was txting me like nothing had changed and it looked like he hadn't been on facebook in a while so today I sent him a message being, like, "check your facebook" he responded telling me that his computer wasn't letting him. *sigh* so I told him I would send him a email.... and I did a couple hours ago. No response yet, but yeah, I am entitling this endeavor "Operation Super Awkward Confrontation Take 2" :-P

[Madcap Maisie]

Posted: 10/20/09 at 11:42pm

Updated On: 12/1/12 at 11:42 PM

[justagirl2]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 2:24am

Aw, Maisie! That made me smile! You guys look so cute in all your pictures...I'm SO happy for you. Do you have any plans?

Kels, it figures his computer wouldn't let him! This is always how things go. I think you're super brave for writing that Facebook message in the first place, so I hope the email goes well. Crossing fingers for ya!

[killertofu333]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 6:31am

Ok, normally I wouldn't post anything like this, especially at this god awful hour, but I feel really, really terrible. Like I should be struck by lightening TERRIBLE. A half hour ago my grandmother called me on the phone sniffling and told me that my aunt in VA is apparently dying. I'm assuming that it's an aneurysm since the bleeding in her brain started so suddenly, but the rest of my family thinks she may have had a massive heart attack early yesterday evening. So I'm going to VA in an hour to be with my family. The really horrible part of it is that 2 nights ago I was talking to my grandmother about her sister (my sick aunt) and told her that she wasn't a very nice person and that I didn't really want to see her at an upcoming wedding next month. Now for the worse part....I said that she was probably the most sour and surly person I'd ever met and I didn't know how anyone could stand her. Oh my god I'm a terrible person. My grandmother feels even worse because she agreed with me the entire time and added a few of her own. When you say stuff like that off the cuff, you never expect something like this to happen almost immediately afterward. And I just got out of the shower and the only thing I could think of was "I hope I programmed my DVR for today and tomorrow". God I'm an ass. I'm obviously useless in a crisis.

I'll keep you guys posted later (maybe if I have wifi somewhere)

Later.

Updated On: 10/21/09 at 06:31 AM

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 7:57am

tofu, you can't beat yourself up about that..........

kels, have you heard back from him yet?

On a bright note....12 DAYS TIL DAUGHTRY!

[Madcap Maisie]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 8:33am

Updated On: 6/11/20 at 08:33 AM

[withoutlovewithoutU]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 8:45am

No news yet :-/

Maisie, yaaay!!! I am so happy for you! I love seeing or hearing about people being happy together.... it gives me hope!

Tofu, ok I pretty much hate some of my stepdads family and I have said countless bad things about them,,,, and truthfully if one of them got hurt or was dying I would be there for my stepdad, but I really wouldn't feel much remorse. What I am trying to say is that there are some people that we just can't connect with.

[lusciouslace]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 10:51am

Tofu- You can't beat yourself up about that. Just because you feel bad for what she's going through doesn't change the person that she is or how you feel about her, based on your own experiences with her. You can still feel compassion for her situation without having to love her personality. Obviously your grandma feels the same way. It doesn't at all make you a horrible person. It's like if you had a rival or enemy at work and you don't like them at all, but they get into a car accident. You still feel sympathy, but that doesn't change your history with that person. If that makes sense.

Don't feel bad! Just support her now. :)

[justagirl2]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 11:15am

Tofu, everyone else said it well. I'm so sorry that you feel terrible about this, but really, you don't need to. I actually just read an article about this the other day, re: cutting toxic people out of your life. It's a necessary thing to do, and just because something bad might eventually happen to them doesn't mean your feelings have to change...they're like that for a reason. I know that you know that neither you nor your grandmother brought this upon her, so please don't feel guilty. You stated your opinion (which I'm sure was well-founded), and the rest was out of your control. Feelings are feelings and circumstances don't usually change them. Speaking as someone who has trouble connecting when people who aren't extremely close to me get sick or die, I've thought that DVR thing many a time on my way to a funeral. We're thinking of you!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 1:22pm

On a happier note, I just saw a youtube of the opening 5 minutes of the Daughtry concert the other night and it is AWESOME! The girl filming it just kept saying "This is effing (but the real word) AWESOME!"

[killertofu333]

Posted: 10/21/09 at 4:53pm

Well I finally got some wifi going so here's the update. My aunt died while I was on my way to VA this morning. My older cousin decided to take her off life support while I was en route. Which is actually a good thing considering that I have an aversion to hospital rooms and the doomed people that inhabit them. As usual I provided the comic relief for the family, cracking jokes and telling funny stories about the deceased. Everyone deals with this sort of thing differently and I use my wonderful sense of humor to plow through crappy situations. Eh. I don't really feel guilty about what I said before anymore. I'd only feel guilty if I was lying, but the reality is that she was not one to be trifled with and was just a difficult lady all the way around. I'm certainly not happy about it but I don't think the waterworks are gonna bust out.

Stockard, if there was a telecast of this Daughtry concert is it possible that I'd see you in this ensemble, perhaps a bit sluttier......even if hubby's around?!



And congrats on the 4 month mark Maisie!!!

Updated On: 10/21/09 at 04:53 PM