I Enjoy Being a Girl Vol 2!- Page 141

[withoutlovewithoutU]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 1:06pm

Hey y'all! *waves*

I wanted to share my new blog with you guys.... I am going to try to post something everyday :-P
Let me know what you think!
Here I Go Again

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 3:44pm

Oh Ja-ag! I was just chatting on FB with cute 26 year old! I don't think he has a girlfriend.......

[danmag]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 3:50pm

Chatting on FB Stock!! Oh, now THAT'S a slippery slope!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 3:51pm

LOL!!! For jag, danmag! For jag!!!

[danmag]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 3:54pm

ROFL!!! Of course my mind went right to the gutter, Stock....

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 3:56pm

Well I guess I'm just lucky he lives 8 hours away.....LOL!

[justagirl2]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 4:57pm

HA! It's okay, you know how these musicians get around. I'll share. But no girlfriend? EXxcellent.

Kels, I love it! I read your entry from yesterday, too. I bookmarked it so I can keep up. Really great thoughts! When I finally write an interesting blog post, I'll link it in here too. Until then...

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 5:10pm

You can have the 26 year old. He's a former student so that would just be weird. I haven't decided if I'm willing to share the 24 year old yet......LOL!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 5:13pm

Oh yeah. On the news just now they were showing that a swinger convention is coming to town. WTF?

[AndAllThatJazz22]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 5:45pm

My English teacher last year told us that one of her students from a past High School she taught at got married to her teacher friend from the preceding middle school. The best part of the story was that when my teacher had him in High School, he used to go to the middle school on half days just to 'visit'.

Piano, I agree. The real housewives is going to do a show in DC, but I say screw it! The Real Housewives of BroadwayWorld would pwn Orange County, Atlanta, and New York COMBINED. I'm not so sure that it would beat New Jersey, though. That's tough competition.

[Schmerg_The_Impaler]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 6:06pm

EWWW!

Though we did have a pedophile gym tacher who spied on the boys in the locker room in seventh grade. Dude got fired.

I just wrote three songs for a Dorian Gray mini-musical that I'm performing Friday in my English class... now I have to make puppets to perform the show!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 6:11pm

Schmerg the Fashion teacher that replaced me when I left was "asked to resign" because she was having an affair with one of the students.

[TheatreFan4]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 6:14pm

Same thing happened in my middle school, Stockard. A teacher was exchanging naughty text messages with a kid & they asked him to resign. The dude was always a creeper...

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 6:33pm

Yuck. This woman (I guess she was right out of college so you could still call her a girl) bought the student a phone under her name so she could call him and there would be no record of the calls on "his" phone that his parents gave him. Apparently alot of the kids knew it was going on so of course eventually it got out. I mean did she really think a 17 year old guy was not going to tell his friends about that?

[clever name]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 7:31pm

I got a new computer at work and it DOESN'T LET ME ON BWW!!!!! I feel so out of the loop
I even asked if they would put this site on my computer. I told them it keeps me sane. I miss you ladies!!

[shh282]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 9:19pm

First grades in new program
Research Methods [paper] - 88
Developmental [paper] - 96
Sexuality [test] - 92


In other news, the boy and I have leveled out to a healthy place in our friendship, thank goodness. We're both too similar in our weirdness not to be friends.

[danmag]

Posted: 10/14/09 at 9:42pm

I miss you Clever!!! Get those f*ckers to get you hooked up!

[killertofu333]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 12:48am

Seriously someone needs to punch me in the throat...I've been slacking extra hard the past couple of weeks. I really need to get back on the ball with this whole BWW thing. My life is actually sucking the LIFE out of me and I have 0 time for anything. But I hope you're all doing well.

Last week I met someone. EEEPPPP!!! She's really amazing. Like for REALS!!! Yes I realize using a phrase like "For Reals" makes me sound like a 13-year-old reject from 1999 but whatever. Like my heart flutters when I think about her, it's bordering on ridiculous how I get when I'm around her, or no where near her. She just moved here and is having a hard time getting acclimated to being in the South, given the fact that she's originally from Boston. She said that no one down here talks to her and feels like they'd rather throw her in front of a bus than have a conversation with her. I felt really bad for her and offered my time if she wanted to get some coffee with me just to talk. We talked for almost an hour and I finally realized that while I had been completely taken with her, all of her, that I failed to noticed a blaring RED FLAG!!! Her left hand was adorned with one of the most gorgeous diamonds I had ever seen. Like seriously beautiful. How in the hell could I have missed that?! When she talks she uses her hands a lot and I really should have seen that monster hanging from her wrist!!! Early in our convo she asked me how old I was but I didn't even think to ask her how old she was. Come to find out she's 36 and very, VERY happily married. So F*ck a Duck I'm screwed. Just to give you an idea she's basically my type in almost every conceivable way. Long, straight dark chocolate brown hair, green eyes, perfect mouth, perfect laugh, soft skin (she touched my arm when she was talking) and a little shorter than me around 5'7'. She's learned in a non-pretentious way, charming and has a brilliant sense of humor. I can tell that she must do yoga or something on the regular because her body is effing fierce. I probably shouldn't put this out here but even her name is magical. Yes MAGICAL!!!!!! It suits her to a tee...it's Marcella. For f*ck's sake her name is Marcella. It rolls off the tongue wonderfully . For those of you that know my real name and how it's pronounced (Yes I know you thought it said Tofu on my birth certificate) she said that my name was really beautiful. I get that almost all the time, but coming from her it was that much better.

Now obviously I've been attracted to women before (i.e the gayness) but this one has really thrown me. Especially since I found out how happy and HOW married she is. With that sort of information I just resign myself to the fact that it will never happen and move on. When we finally got to her husband she looked so happy talking about how proud she is of him for landing a position as a professor at the university here. While she's talking about her fantastically amazing and gifted husband all I want to do is kiss her. So sad. I talked to my friend about this over the weekend and asked for some advice. Consequences be damned or get nice 'n' comfy in the "Friend Zone"? In so many words he told me to have my dirty wanton way with her in the nearest utility closet and be done with it. But given his history of practically being a ho himself, I took that with a grain of salt. Seriously he'll mack with a racist, homophobe with 6 kids and a wife sooo......yeah. But I've never been in the habit of breaking up relationships, dating or married/gay or straight. I mean I've definitely done some f*cked up sh*t in my day but handling "business" with a married woman ain't one of them.

I've tried to will myself to not think of her in any way, shape or form but I can't seem to get her out of my mind. She might suspect that something's wrong with me because she called me around 11 this morning but I told her I was busy with work even though today was my day off and I'm off tomorrow as well. It's like all of this is messing with my mind and it's waaayyyyyy too soon for that. I met her last week and it's already got me like this?! Sheesh I can't believe I've turned into a sappy lesbian. Good Lord.

Oh and to top it all off my grandmother's hounding me about why I'm not married or even talking about boys anymore. For the love of God I stopped talking about "boys" almost 3 years ago when I figured there was no reason to even keep up that pretense. She said she can't wait to have great-grandchildren. And the entire time I'm thinking: "Yeah. My wife and I would be more than happy to give you In Vitro Fertilization babies as soon as we know you won't lead the other villagers to the town square, strike a match and burn us at the stake for it." F*ck me gently with a chainsaw my life sucks!!! I think tomorrow calls for endless ice cream and white wine...mixed together in the blender for my morning shake. UGH!!!

Any advice, words of wisdom, a good old fashioned "snap out of it stupid" or whatever would be good right about now. Thanks for listening guys. I hope you have a wonderful day.

XOXO
Tofu

P.S: I'm listening to my iTunes as I'm writing this and on shuffle WHY did "More Than Words Can Say" by Alias just start playing?! F my life.

Updated On: 10/15/09 at 12:48 AM

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 7:12am

Oh tofu.....I'm sorry. That really does stink. But, I think you are going to have to find a way to be just friends with her or else not see/talk to her at all if you can't.

[danmag]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 8:16am

Tofu, that completely sucks....If you feel that strongly about this woman I hate to say it, but I would avoid her. You know it will just be torture to be around her...

We miss you around here honey!!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 1:30pm

OK, I don't know how many of you have actually heard the whole Daughtry CD (Leave This Town - the new one) if any of you have at all. But anyhoo, there is a song on the CD called Tennessee Line. It's a ballad with a bit of a country flavor and Vince Gill sings on it with Chris. If you haven't heard this song you have to check it out. It's absolutely gorgeous.

But the best news is that it was just announced today that Vince and Daughtry will be performing it at the Country Music Awards! I'm so happy because it is such a great song, and I was afraid it would go largely unheard. Plus I'm thinking this means they're going to release it to country radio?

[withoutlovewithoutU]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 7:30pm

Stock - That little smiley made me laugh!

Ok, I need my gals help. There is this boy - I think I have mentioned him before.... he's the one who I have been flirting with since senior year of high school - and I really want him in my life. I like the guy as more then a friend - he's sweet, goofy, and looks like Puck from Glee - but he is very shy and I think I kinda scare him a bit (because I am a spaz). The last time I saw him I had this huge smile on my face for the rest of the day.... and I feel like a better version on me when I am with him. Our flirtation has been going on so long and I want to confront him so I know where we stand, but I want to make it clear to him that I am totally cool with just being friends.... but how do I do that without scaring him away for good?

[Select a Member Name]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 8:56pm

withoutlove, you give him a pair of your soiled underpants. That'll do the trick!

[StockardFan]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 10:50pm

LMAO, SAMN!!!

Seriously, I think you just need to CALMLY sit him down and talk to him. You need to tell him how you feel because if you don't you will always wonder. I know it's scary, but you must do it!

[AndAllThatJazz22]

Posted: 10/15/09 at 10:51pm

What's with all of the relationship drama?

Oh Tofu,

I can relate to you! I always swoon over boys who are straight... and in relationships. There's this one guy in my Spanish class that's SO DAMN SEXY. He's got light hair, blue eyes, perfect white teeth, long legs, he dresses well, and he cried at the end of Selena. That is a match made in heaven for me. Emotional, good looking, well dressed... *sigh*. You would think that he's gay, because it's too good to be true... but nope. He's straight. Not only is he straight, but he's a stereotypical southern baptist conservative republican (Yes, that's another area where I relate to you. I, too, live in the deep south). I'm not sure if many of you are familiar with the average conservative southern baptist, but 90% are really homophobic... and this kid that I'm obsessed with is insanely homophobic. Not only is he insanely homophobic, but he's taken (by a female, of course). I really can not talk to him... ever. It's too damn awkward for me. I'm so attracted to him that I can not be 'just friends' with him. All that runs through my head whenever I'm around him is how smokin' hot he is. Luckily, we share absolutely nothing in common and he's really not in my circle of friends.... so I'm not around him all the time. I'm only around him when I'm staring at him in Spanish class, and we don't sit anywhere near each other... so I feel very separated from him (which is a good thing).
What makes it more complicated for you is that you are already IN a relationship with this girl. It may not be a physical or romantic relationship, but it's a relationship. You seem to be friends, so you can't just ignore her (the way I ignore the dude at my school)... but I agree with DanMeg. It might be a little too awkward and heartbreaking to be friends with her. I kinda know how ya feel. It's like looking at a delicious, freshly baked cookie that's made exactly to your liking. It looks so appetizing, you can smell it from across the room, and you're TOTALLY ready to chow down and eat it.. but ya can't, because the cookie is saved for someone else and there's nothing you can do about it. If you're around the cookie for too long... it's only going to make you want it more, and that could lead to you trying to eat it. In the case of relationships... that could be a complete disaster. Slowly but surely, you should end your friendship. Look at me... comparing love/attraction to a freshly baked cookie! :P
Ditto on your Grandmother. My parents are always asking me about why I don't have a girlfriend and what girls I like. It is so awkward. I don't react well to that AT ALL.

Withoutlove,
Are you really okay with being 'just friends'?. You sound like you like this guy quite a bit. Anyway, if there has been flirtation coming from his side as well, he might be just as curious as you are. I don't have any advice on how to confront him about it (Sorry...I'm just not that smart!), but maybe you shouldn't be so nervous. If you feel like you're in an awkward area in between 'friends' and 'lovebirds', you probably are... and he probably feels the same way as well.

Updated On: 10/15/09 at 10:51 PM