I feel your pain. I was the most broke way back in '87, when I left NYC and moved to L.A.
I was working two jobs: waiting tables at Paulsson's Supper Club on the weekends (where Forbidden Broadway was playing), and doing office temp jobs during the week, when there wasn't anything out there to audition for.
I actually thought I was doing fine. I had two thousand bucks in the bank as an emergency backup, and I was able to make ends meet from month to month. Then, my roommate got into an international tour of "Ain't Misbehavin'" making very nice money. He assured me he would cover his part of the rent, not wanting to find another roomie for me (us) while he was away. That was fine with me, as long as he paid it. I could live by myself, right? Hey, sounded great! Except that he DIDN'T cover the rent. I got no check for the first six weeks. He told me he was wiring it from Australia, but then didn't. I covered the full rent for the first month... and then the second month. I finally called him collect and asked him what the f*ck was going on? Three days later I got a check. I had about 9 dollars in the bank, at that point.
And his check bounced and froze my account on a Friday. I had NO money in my pocket. I couldn't even take out the 9 dollars I had, since my checking account was frozen. It was the worst feeling! I was sick to my stomach, and not just from hunger. I called my dad and started to bawl on the phone. He immediately wired me about two or three hundred dollars to tie me over... but I knew that wasn't going to solve the problem. I couldn't afford to live in NY in that apartment all by myself. I was flat broke, working two jobs, and I was in New York City in 1987, which was New York at its WORST.
I ended up throwing what little I owned into a few boxes and suitcases, and I moved to L.A. My mom was living out here at the time. I started over. I got an agent after only being out here for three days. I got back on my feet, slowly but surely.
I'm doing quite well right now, truth be told.
*knocks wood*
Life is strange, and very tough at times. But you have options. Doors close, and others open for you. Be strong, keep your head, and do what you have to do to survive and move forward in the direction you want to go.
Hang in there, kiddo.
"Jaws is the Citizen Kane of movies."
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