I feel horrible. I went to another party on Friday night, and my gay friend was there. He kept flirting with me and I didn't stop him, I actually flirted back. Not just "Hahaha, I'm going to laugh really hard at Jazzy's jokes" flirting... REAL flirting. He would rub my hair, pull me close to him with my tie (it was part of my costume), do silly dances with me, rub my shirt. I didn't reject it at all, I encouraged it!!! I freaking flirted back! I was totally leading him on. That's so not like me. I don't ever flirt with anyone or anything, and even some of my friends noticed that we were acting a little TOO friendly towards each other and they were a little "WTF-ed" to see me hitting on another dude. Luckily they don't even remember what happened, so I'm not so worried about that. I just feel horrible. He's texting me and calling me more than ever, he is sending me tons of messages on FaceBook... I think he likes me, and I like him too... but I ain't going to be dating anyone anytime soon. It's not a good idea for me for SOOO many reasons, but mainly because I would have to keep our relationship super, super, secret... which could lead to trouble. I just feel awful now, because I have to go to school tomorrow like nothing happened. I seriously don't know what to do. I kept leading him on and now I feel like a jerk. (Maybe once we get to page 150, all of the relationship drama will end).
"There's nothing good on. The media hates Christmas. The media loves vampires, though. Maybe they will show a Twilight Christmas."
-Danmeg's 10 year old son.