Ok ladies, today has been just so awful
First thing, it was all going well, my mom called and we got lunch together which was great and then I was going to the mall with Morgan and we are SUPER close right now. Well backstory. Two nights ago we were hanging out with our friend Ayron at Barnes and Noble until our other friend Korey met us their with his friend Sarah. Korey and I in high school were really good friends, but I haven't talked to him since college/since I have come out. Things were awkward but manageable but I thought it was because we just don't know each other like we used to. I swear, he is such a Jesus freak now, and it's all good, but here is what went down. On the way to the mall, Morgan, like a good friend, told me that while we were there that night, Korey and her were texting and he said that he was not comfortable being around me. She asked why, and he said it was because of the "choice" I made in being gay and that he does not agree with it and the only way to is to stay as far away from me as possible. Seriously, she told him that he won't catch my gayness from me, and honestly, I keep in check my gayness with other ppl and I knew that he might not be comfortable with it, so, I didn't mention at ALL anything about boys.. nothing, so I don't know why he acted the way he is. He told Morgan that she was going to hell for supporting gays... He told her to her face. It pisses me off, and he also said that even if you are gay, you should keep it to yourself and never act on it and be as straight as possible and pray that God will change you. Well, this isn't a decision I made, it is how I am, and I felt so bad that he was acting the way he did. I don't act differently now than I did before when I was "straight". Also, not that this changes anything, but he is black and people think he is gay and personally, I think that he acts the way he does around gay people because he is insecure about himself, but it just bothers me that he would act like that and tell his own friend (Morgan M) that she is going to hell. I'm not going to lie, I got really upset, but thankfully held back my emotions.
Then tonight I was getting coffee with Hannah and we were having fun just talking and talking and talking. In walks my friend Sienna and we got really close this past year, well, she walked in with Kate. Kate hates me, I hate her. I blame Kate for the downfall of my relationship with my ex best friend Taryn, but I digress. Anyway, she walked behind me, so I didn't expect her to see me. Well, then she walked behind me again (the stairs were right behind my head) and then they walk around a shelve of books (we are at Barnes and Noble) and then I stare and make eye contact with her and she makes eye contact with me.... she didn't wave, smile, say hello, nothing. Again, I was upset.
GAH! It just bothers me that some people let their "religion" get in the way of relationships. I have very religious aunts and uncles and they accept me for who I am. That is how it goes. So do my parents, and I guess because my "coming out" story was so easy and positive that I never expected this to happen. It's fine if you don't want to be around me because you don't like my personality, but to say it's because I am gay and had the CHOICE to do so... no, I am beyond upset and pissed right now. I had to delete him as a friend on facebook, and today was his birthday, so thankfully I didn't write on his wall yet, otherwise I would have looked like a fool. I really wanted to say something about how he didn't choose to be black, I didn't choose to be gay, but I just need to avoid him. LAKSJFLAKJF! Ok rant over. I feel somewhat better :/ Thanks for reading if you do!
How can people be such jerks about it? 
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