Holy effing SH*T!!!! I seriously had no idea I worried you all that much. I'm so sorry for that girls, especially Maisie, you were really freaked about me. Awww *hugs* and thanks so much for your concern.
I swear I'm fine now, but I
was a little "bananas" a couple weeks ago. My grandparents asked me to sit down and talk with them on a Saturday morning and basically grilled me asking a bunch of questions and really trying to dig into me, but always saying that they loved me and were concerned about my being somewhat withdrawn and not talking about things that are going on in my life right now. I completely understood where they were coming from and why they were worried. I didn't really mean to shut them out but it's just in my nature to work crap out on my own and get my sh*t
completely together before I move forward. They were crying and telling me that our religion should always come first in my life and that I MUST devote myself whole-souled to it.
Now while I've been on this thread I've been avoiding telling you guys what my religion actually is because when people find out they look at me funny and think I'm a maladjusted "Jesus Freak" (their words not mine) who would like nothing more than to convert them and tell them that they're horrible sinners. That's just something I don't do nor will I ever do because I am no saint, you guys should know that by now. But my grandparents and I are all Jehovah's Witnesses and I've been raised as such since birth. So with them crying, hugging and constantly saying that they want God to
continue loving me it got to be a bit much for me to handle. I know that at one time or another, unless you live in the straight up BOONIES, someone from my religion has knocked on your door at dawn and wanted to talk about the bible. I really REALLY hate doing that on Saturday mornings. It's just annoying for me to bother people who simply want to relax on the weekends. I know that the last thing
I want to do is get up at 7am on a Saturday and bust your door down!!! They said that I don't do "that" enough and I don't seem to care about it anymore, which isn't untrue. I'm obviously an adult but it's very difficult for me to get "out from under" my family because I love them. They said that if there was anything I wanted to tell them that they'd understand and support me. That alone was a weight off my shoulders and I contemplated telling them that I was gay for a minute. That is until they interjected my thought process by saying "...as long as you don't tell us you're gay everything's fine." So basically I can bitch slap a nun, kill a man and be involved in terroristic activities but I can't be gay. Okie Dokie. So all of that took the wind out of my rainbow colored sails. *sigh*
Then a few days later I got a call from a friend in TX, who's also gay and in the same religion, and he told me that a friend of
his came out to his parents and they promptly kicked him out of the house and disowned him saying that they no longer had a son. Even though I don't know him I'm saddened by the whole situation because he's only 19 and an only child like me and has literally lost his family and friends for just saying who he is. So that sucked ass and made me feel worse.
DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA for almost 2 weeks was getting on my last f*cking nerve!!!! Not to mention I've been super busy at work, going to class and studying like a mad-woman. It's been a hectic and crappy 2 weeks!! And I have to go to Newport News, VA early tomorrow morning for a funeral. Sooooo yeah. But no worries, I always seem to come out of sh*t clean on the other side....unless there's more sh*t and mucky muck to get through, even then I may come out spotty but I'm still here. Either way I'm fine now.
And again thank you all so very much for being worried about me.
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BB, that was great!!! Major props girlie.
L, that last part of your PM was hysterical!!!! I can be your Mr. Miyagi of gay. "Wax on, wax off bitches...unless you're into kink and prefer the wax on. Hmmm?"
Well I have to go to class but I'll be back in like 5 hours ok? Much love ladies!!!
XOXO
Tofu
"I have the prettiest mother..."--Rhoda Penmark~~~ The Bad Seed
congrats BB! Just watched the video! (Actually, I skimmed and when I saw you, I watched those parts lol) 
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