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#151get tested!
Posted: 11/30/06 at 3:26pm
There is indeed a psychological cloud over our heads as gay men that we will get HIV inevitably. It's not true, nor logical as long as we are safe. It's no more likely because we are gay. The risk increases gay or straight based on how we practice safe sex or not. It's not even more likely just because we are promiscuous or not.
And guilt of "being spared" is something I have felt, as well. I am way more of a slut than a friend of mine. Me: HIV- He: HIV+ And for the longest time, I couldn't believe it. Especially in that I had made many mistakes.
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#152get tested!
Posted: 11/30/06 at 3:38pm
I've had my share of survivor's guilt.
And DD, I wasn't doubting the existence of bug chasers, I just remembered that Rolling Stone article sparking a controversy. Even if the article was fudged to some degree, I had no doubt that it was stemming from somewhere.
#153get tested!
Posted: 11/30/06 at 3:40pmyeah, but jesus jerby, some clinic workers put the fear of god in you if you're ever even looked at a man, it seems!
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#154get tested!
Posted: 11/30/06 at 3:43pm
Some do indeed. They are like dentists. "YOU DON'T FLOSS ENOUGH!!!!!! YOU BETTER FLOSS OR I WILL PUT OUT ALL YOUR TEETH!!!!"
The last one I had at the Geffen clinic rocked. She was the coolest woman ever. She had the best freaking attitude. She wouldn't have it with any guilt or negativity. She was a great positive enforcement.
#155get tested!
Posted: 11/30/06 at 3:43pm
Even though I've been somewhat witness to its reality (bug chasers), it still seems unreal.
Survivor's guilt I guess exists on many levels. It's sometimes difficult for someone like me, responding to treatmeant, healthier than I was when I was first diagnosed in 1992, to see friends not responding at all. How do I give them the good news when I go to the dr. that my numbers are up and stuff... when they aren't even on meds because they no longer work.
Then I see friends who have been POZ since the mid-80s, with no effects AT ALL. And no meds.
Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. - Randy Pausch
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