All right, girls, I just need to fix something here. This is where my obsessive compulsive disorder comes in bad (besides obsessin over Adam of course) You don't have to read this I'm mad and rambling 'cause it's that time of night.
OKay, I just went back to page 431 to read what was said about "boobs" Adam's publicist, and reading on, I just can't believe what a big deal was made about the "muppets." I've already vented about this but it really is bothering me that all of you think we were just "12 yr olds who think he's cute" That is the last thing I want to be thought of as an Adam fan.
Although I wasn't the one doing most of the squealing, I was with them and we were all extremely excited and did not realize Adam would be right there in front of us, and I guess we were taking advantage of not being able to do that in a theatre. I felt so bad after a while and was trying to calm them down, as excited as I was, because I know there were people there trying to enjoy Adam's music and really give him some respect as an artist. My little sister was 12, yes, and doesn't know Adam like we do, so for her yeah, it was just like "oo this is so cool!" and she got a little carried away. The others we had just met there and we are all 15. We know what Adam is talking about in Book of Endings and were just being pround of being those crazy stalkers!
We did sound really obnoxious and annoying, and I almost didn't want to be squished into that tiny spot with them, but I just have to get this clear. ..I'm not totally sure about the others, but I know I have a deeeeep love for Adam. I've come to understand the way he is, all that he's done with his life, and how he made it through in his career. I love his voice and think it is the most amazing unique sound ever heard; and I understand where he came from with his kind of music and tryng to bring back classic rock. I love classic rock because of him. After really getting into MP, I've really learned to appreciate his music and understand his songwriting. I am so happy for him with Civilian and how far he's made it.
Reading every thing about Adam there is, especially when you want to, can really make you understand him. This whole thing sounds so pathetic for me, but I just wanted to clarify that when you hear Adam fans screaming "I LOVE YOU ADAM!", for some people it reallly does mean they lOOOVve him...everything about him and not just because he's hot. It just kills me that you think someone can actually find out about Adam and only love him for his looks. Right when he opens his mouth, there's no avoiding falling in love with and gaining a deep appreciation for his voice.
And I just have to say, for a while I was just alone, trapped in my Adam obsession with everyone else around me thinking I'm crazy and just not understanding Adam. I am soo glad you guys are all here, and I feel so much better finding that there are fangirl things I am not the only one doing! And it's not just like we all like him cuz he's hot and a good singer. Every real fan of his knows and understands him, and I just think that's a great thing to share with eachother. I am proud of being an Adam freak and I know you guys are too, but I just hope you know I love him for him, and I am not one of those surface fans.
I've just gotten some major fangirlish fumes out.
REALLY REALLY sorry for the length...
"If from the farthest sun I'll carry on * just for the moment I can feel * the beauty of the beating of your heart * every time it beats for me."
Updated On: 1/27/05 at 11:47 PM