The Official Adam Pascal Love thread- Page 895

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:40am

*searches for Hershey's Kisses, to no avail*

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:40am

Hehehe.

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:41am

*decides to be kind and share Hershey's kisses with everyone*
*realizes that that isn't really possible*
*stops eating a grabs a glass of water instead*

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:44am

*appreciates ballerina's kindness, while realizing there isn't one f*cking piece of chocolate in the house, right when I need it the most*

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:46am

*wishes to get rid of some of my chocolate*

alright. if she doesn't post in the next ten-ish minutes, i'm going to bed. i have school tomorrow. *grumbles* but at least it isn't quite yet midnight here, but still...

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:47am

Me too, Chloe! *searches through cupboard* I've got... butterscotch pudding! Which I will now eat with a fork, because my spoons are all dirty.

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:49am

What's a little lost sleep? Anyway, I bet she posts in about five.

Where are you, ballerina?

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:51am

i'm in chicago, the wonderful city that got a zillion broadway previews this year, but i didn't go to a single one! and my parents went to two.
but, i can't complain, since i get to see wicked, and possibly stage door.

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:54am

Butterscotch pudding is better than nothing. And eating it with a fork should make it last a REALLY long time.

I grew up in the Chicago area, actually. It's a good place to move to NYC from. And I'm not putting it down, I mean it.

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:55am

Nope, it's gone.

I'd love to go to either place! Anywhere to see a REAL show. Tours don't come here often. As it is, I had to take a 6 hour bus ride to get to a show!

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:59am

My apple's gone too. Oh Emcee-eeee!

I remember, and you hit bad weather and had to stay with someone overnight...

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 12:59am

Pudding....

Chicago really is a pretty cool city. Though I'm pretty sure I want to spend part of my life in NYC. My friend and I keep making jokes about how we're both going to move to NYC so we can star in two broadway revivals- her Sunday in the Park with George, me Sweeney Todd. And my other friend will somehow play both Sweeney and George at the same time.

Oy, now I know I'm getting tired... I'm rambling about random stuff... alright, two-ish more minutes.

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:05am

Yup, that was a pretty exciting trip!

Ballerina, you're going to bed? You'll miss it!

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:07am

alright, i'm all ready for bed... i'll give it four minutes more, and then that's it! i do have a spanish test tomorrow... of course, i thought the test was today so i've already studied insanely... and there's the tired ramble again.

[hedwig14]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:07am

I hope I don't get slammed for intruding, but I felt I must interject and say: "The suspense is killing me!"

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:09am

Pudding, hedwig? *holds out fork*

Aw, poor ballerina!

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:10am

We should have suggested that Em write a summary tonight, and do the long, detailed version tomorrow... not that I won't be happy to read something long right now. But she's probably exhausted.

Good luck on your test tomorrow, ballerina.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:10am

Nine and one half hours in the East Village, bitter cold. One of the most beautiful nights of my life. It's so shocking to me that this film is finally, actually, really happening, and it took this much for that to become an even semi-reality to me. It was strange, because the thing that hit me hardest was to see a chair - you know, those Hollywood chairs - with "Adam Pascal" printed across it. That was suddenly so in-my-face, and the thing that really said to me "look, this movie is coming. It's going to exist, whether you like it or not. Have some faith." I want to have faith - I want to believe that this thing is going to be as gorgeous as it has the potential to be. I think I'm gaining more and more of that, but it's so hard to let go. I saw what was going on today, and most of the people working on this thing haven't got a clue about the precious cargo they carry. They don't know the story, the characters... nothing. It's strange to me to see that, and know that I have to share something so dear to my heart with the rest of the world, hoping that they'll see the same in it that I do, but still being a little bit selfish, for reasons I don't know that I even have figured yet. Being down there today helped me a lot, but it also made the emotional investment I have in the fate of this film even more astronomical. This has got to turn out good, or I'm not going to be okay. My heart will simply shatter if this film isn't everything that it can and needs to be. Hearts are definitely in the right place, it seems, so we can only hope.

We got to a middle school that they were using as the community center where Life Support takes place around two in the afternoon,and just watched a bunch of takes of the cast coming out of the building, and Mark's "Smile for Ted Coppel, officer...." part. Then we got to go inside to where the actors (as well as some rather fiesty schoolchildren) were, in just this big chaotic room. They were fixing makeup and hanging out, basically. Right in the center were the actors' chairs - RENT logo printed on the back, names on the front. Funniest thing of the day - Adam. Only one sitting in his chair, in typical "diva" (only in the most loving of ways, of course) fashion. Very "this is MY chair, and I'm going to very proudly sit in it and look amazing." It was just so Adam, and I couldn't help but laugh a bit. I felt like he should've had a tiara or something. We watched some of the shooting through the window, since it was warm inside, and then they finished, saying that everybody except for Anthony was going to be gone for a bit.

The actors were all basically just milling around, so we went up and introduced ourselves to Anthony. Poor thing was so tired and cold, but very, very sweet. It took him a minute to make the connection that I was the one from the boards who had PM'ed him, but once the confusion was gone, it was nice. I tried not to be too shy, and we talked a little bit about what had been going on - he asked if we'd ever been on set before, and if we'd gotten to watch anything on the monitors, etc - and what they'd be shooting later. I told him it was my very first trip the East Village, and he was shocked. He directed us to the Life Cafe, since I mentioned I'd been meaning to check it out. Adam, Jesse and Wilson were standing right to the side of Anthony, who was sitting on a lunchroom table - Adam's eyes had flickered in my direction for a second, but I didn't really do anything. Anthony looked over at them and was like "hey, did you meet everybody?" Adam looked at me, and his eyes lit up. They're the most beautiful blue in the world. And ughhhh, that smile. "We've met before..... dozens of times!" I laughed and nodded. He was close, I suppose. Today was time ten. He shook my hand and said "nice to see you again, sweetie." God, I missed him so much. He was wearing jeans and a leather jacket, which absolutley murdered me. He looked drop-dead gorgeous in leather, and his hair is actually great. It's just the color I love, too - dark with a little bit of blonde highlights. The pictures from yesterday aren't doing him justice. He looks simply amazing - so sexy, if only a little bit too skinny, but that's specifically for the movie. Then Jesse shook both of our hands, introduced himself and got our names, and then Wilson. Jesse looked at Wilson and told him he hadn't given us an introduction in a manly enough voice, so he deepened his tone and tried again. They're wonderful together, and both incredibly warm and sweet. Wilson looks as perfect as he ever did, and very, very pretty. I had been concerned about how he was for the part physically after all of this time, but he's just fine. One of them, Jesse, maybe, asked Anthony how we all knew each other. He sort of hesitated and laughed. I said something to the effect of it being a long story. I sorely regret not having asked them to take a picture, because they were all in full costume, but I knew they were planning on leaving soon and didn't want to impede too much. So, we said we'd catch up with them later and went outside to watch some other exteriors of just Anthony, since Mark goes to the Life Support meeting late.

Dinner at the Life Cafe. It was a really cool feeling to be there the night of this enormous event. I sort of tried to take it all in - it's a cute place, and I did eat a little. I had fries, which in and of itself it pretty fitting. "And thirteen orders of fries...."

The cafe's exterior doesn't look like it used to, so a bar on the other side of the park was modeled to look like the older version of the Life Cafe. It took a long time for things to get set up over there - tons of lights, cameras and snow-making machines. We killed some time, and then watched them shoot footage of Anthony walking down the street singing a few lines of "What You Own." He sang along to the recorded track, which wasn't balanced perfectly, but the playback sounded incredible. It's a lot clearer than the original, Anthony sounds as great as ever, and Adam sounds f*cking brilliant. His voice has gotten so much better as the time has passed. He did the same few lines over and over and over and OVER again, but every single time, I couldn't help but get a huge smile on my face and tears in my eyes. I couldn't believe what I was actually witnessing. We were under a little tent where the staff could watch the various takes on monitors, and after a while it started to get pretty crowded. Before I knew it, I was surrounded by: Adam, Idina, Tracie, Rosario, Jesse, a bunch of production staff people, Monica Lewinsky (apparently she knows someone who knew Jonathan through Tick Tick... BOOM! or something... not sure, exactly) and Jonathan Larson's father. At first I didn't realize it had been him, but when etheb told me, I almost cried. I don't know why, but I looked at her and just said "no, why'd you tell me that? God, I can't believe it's his father," staring into space, having no idea where to place that information. We stood there all watching the various monitors, my eyes darting back and forth from Adam to the monitor that was playing Anthony's segment on it. The smile on his face is something I will never, ever forget. He looked so happy, and that suddenly made every doubt in my mind about this disappear. The way we watched it was essentially how it'll appear on screen; I can't believe that this is RENT, and yet it actually looks like a movie. It's one tiny piece, but it looked fantastic.

We didn't get to speak to Idina, Tracie or Rosario, but Idina looks STUNNING. She's so hot, it's unbelievable. Curly hair, just gorgeous. Tracie's beautiful, too. Not what the Joannes on Broadway typically look like, but she's very pretty. I didn't really get to see her act, but if it's worth anything, she seems to get along well with the rest of the cast. Rosario has a ton of presence, which makes me happy, even though I'm still mildly upset that she's not Daphne. She was cheering for Anthony when the takes were done, and dancing all around. She and Adam seem to get along, so that's a definite plus. She looks like she has a lot of spirit, and is definitely enthusiastic. That was great to see. She's very pretty - hair was curly, but they weren't the wild, crazy curls I really wanted.

While that was all going on, there were a few breaks, and Adam came out from under the tent to sign autographs, etc for other people. I knew I'd regret it if I didn't grab him, because now it's this long stretch of indefinite time until I see him again, so I walked over to him as he was finishing with someone else. "Hey, can I borrow you for a second?" "Sure!" "Do you mind if she takes a picture?" as I point to etheb. "Sure!" I turned around and glanced at him - huge grin, and he put his arm out, which I gladly accepted. Godddddddd, I missed him. I thanked him and wished him luck in case I didn't see him again, and he said something sweet of like "of course, sweetie" but I don't remember exactly what. We caught Jesse, too, and at the moment I wasn't wearing a hat because I didn't want to in the pictures, or gloves because it's easier to work a camera without and he was like "have you guys been out here all day?" "Yep, since two in the afternoon, just a break for dinner. We went to the Life Cafe, though!" "Two in the afternoon?! And you're not even wearing a hat. Or gloves!" He's really friendly. Yay!

They made some snow, and did a lot of testing with rehearsal standins, and we stayed just a little bit longer to watch the rehearsal tests with the cast of a scene right before they go into the Life Cafe. I couldn't take my eyes off of Adam. Oh, and by the way, I sat in his chair. Just for a bit, but it was fun. I didn't want to leave, and I just kept gazing back at him, more tears in my eyes. I didn't want to leave any of it, or any of the day behind, but he's still the only thing about it that's truly familiar, so the one thing that I fixated on. It was such a pleasure to see him again, and just so sad when it was over. Summer's a long time away. I had meant to ask him if the purple pants were making an appearance, but I forgot. Everything shot today takes place on New Year's Eve, and if he's wearing the pants, it'll be on Christmas, so we'll see. The Mark scarf is in, so hopefully the pants will be, too.

Alright, to conclude. I've literally been speechless for so long. It may actually be the first time in my life in which I really haven't had any words to express something. I just stutter uselessly. I walked into my dorm room, and my friends here just kept asking if I was okay. I sort of shook my head and stared in a daze, saying I wasn't really sure. So much happened, and it's all just sitting in my head, not really sure where to go. I had the opportunity of a lifetime, met some incredible people, and the "reunion" was a very happy one indeed. I don't think I'll sleep, because my brain can't stop ticking. I can't stop smiling, even though I'm exhausted. I can't even think anymore, I'm so worn out, and I'm shivering like you wouldn't believe. But tonight was perfect enough that none of that crap matters one wit, and I'm grinning like a fool anyway. I really don't even believe it, or that it's over. It feels like the longest day of my life, but then again, it's just... done. And it's been one hell of a ride. There's something I can't find the words for, but about being in this place, with these people that changed the way I look at this musical forever. To see a song that's so familiar to me being sung in the middle of a street in New York put everything into a totally foreign context, but having those people there made it somehow comforting. I kind of wondered what it would've been like had Jonathan been there to oversee it, which was a weird thought. I wondered if it would even be happening, anyway, and prayed that this it what he would've wanted. But it was cold, in the middle of a New York winter, and I was looking at the original cast of something that changed theatre history and changed my life. I was looking at the father of the man who wrote it, and the people in whose hands it now lies. I was thumbing through the RENT bible, and a lot of it so much more real and resonant now. I'm not sure what to say there, or what the point is. It's just... kind of unbelievable.

E - thanks for one of the most beautiful memories of my life. I love you.

So, I guess that's it.

single frames of one magic night....

forever flicker in close-up.

Updated On: 3/12/05 at 01:10 AM

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:11am

Thanks.

Alright, I now begin the process of prying myself away from the computer... wah.

[hedwig14]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:11am

EDIT: speechless Updated On: 3/11/05 at 01:11 AM

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:18am

*cries for a long time*

Emcee, you deserved this. I'm glad you had such an incredible time. I really want to give you a hug!

[bwayballerina]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:21am

Oh my gosh wow that was amazing. I'm so glad I stuck around to read it. You are so lucky to have gotten to do this... and you got to sit in Adam's chair, that's something. Wow... and he recognized you and... wow.

Alright, NOW I can go to bed. Goodnight everyone!

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:22am

I'm crying. It's part happy, part sad. The happy.... I missed Adam so much. It was beyond wonderful to see him again. He finally recognized me, and he's so psyched about this. Actually, I don't think any of it's really sad. I suppose the part about being in the presence of Jonathan's father, and those tears are sad. But just the huge amount of emotional attachment I have to this movie. It has to turn out okay. It just has to.

Updated On: 3/11/05 at 01:22 AM

[Allie]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:24am

*hugs Emcee*

[Chloe]

Posted: 3/11/05 at 1:28am

*hugs everyone* That was beautiful, Emcee. Thanks for taking the time to write all that tonight and letting us share the magic of it with you. Now I hope you can get some rest - see you all tomorrow!