Ah Schmerg, I'm SO darn stubborn. It is partially caused by my stubbornness.
Well, sadly... at my school, they don't cast based on talent. It's based on the way you look. There were tons of kids last year who deserved to get the lead parts, but they ended it up in the chorus. The female leads last year were tall and gorgeous, but they were not the best singers and actresses. Last year, I was lucky to have a nice meaty role (with acting AND singing) that I was physically right for. This year, I'm not so lucky. The male parts I have to choose from are the star of the football team, the teen heart throb (who has to dance extremely well...and I was kicked out of the dance sequence last year), the agent (who is supposed to look older...and I look 11), the father of 2 kids (again...I look WAY to young), and the little brother (it was my only hope... but the teacher decided to give the part to one of the middle schoolers). I thought that if we had the same crew of guys that we had last year, MAYBE I'd be able to get a part... but I met all of the new guys today and they are all much taller, older, and better looking than me. I am a sophomore who looks like a 6th grader, I'm scronny, and I'm slightly femminine. The new guys are all so tall, muscular, masculine, and mature-looking. They're everything that I am not, and it's going to be really tough for me to compete with them. This year's musical doesn't have any part that I'm physically right for...and it doesn't matter if I'm talented or not. We could have Patti LuPone Vs. Random Teen and the random teen would get it if she looked the part! Worst case would be getting put in the chorus... bur I REALLY don't want to be in the chorus. I'm so darn stubborn. That's why I feel dropping out and doing orchestra again...where it's all based on talent. I would REALLY miss thetare, but my odds of getting an actual part are slim... and I'm WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY too stubborn to settle for the chorus. I haven't made my official desicion yet and I won't for quite some time... but I'm highly considering dropping out.
"There's nothing good on. The media hates Christmas. The media loves vampires, though. Maybe they will show a Twilight Christmas."
-Danmeg's 10 year old son.