My family has always considered itself Jewish, but I often joked that we were "the worst Jews in the world". We only went to the synagogue on Yom Kippur, barely kept Passover, and nothing was stopping us from enjoying a ham and cheese sandwich. Now, very few children enjoy sitting through a 3 hour service primarily in Hebrew, but by the time I was about 12, I began to contemplate why I disliked religious services so much. I came to the conclusion that I subconsciously didn't believe in what was being taught, and the more I thought about it, I
knew I didn't believe in what was being taught. In my opinion, religion should be a personal in the sense that one should choose to express their religious beliefs in whatever manner they deem necessary. I didn't like the idea of simply conforming my beliefs around those of an organization.
Yom Kippur, the holiday of atonement, is a good example. Now, I wholeheartedly believe in the
idea of this holiday. That is, reflecting on one's prior actions and vowing to do better in the future. But for me, sitting in a synagogue chanting prayers in a language I didn't even understand wasn't doing it for me. I believe that I don't need to go to a temple to feel spiritual or to participate in such holidays, and that I should be able to partake in such events in a way that is beneficial to me specifically. Which is why I believe that religion should not be assigned to you at birth, but is something that should be discovered and decided through personal experiences and lifestyle choices. Your "religion" should be what makes you happy, and helps you feel accomplished. So whether that is achieved from a mixture of 2 religions, 3 religions, or 92 religions, should be up for you to decide.
Also around the age of 12, I concluded that I don't believe in God. Reason being, I was simply too logical. I couldn't (and still can't) get myself to believe in such an abstract power; to trust and put faith in an idea that to me, was not concrete and exact. Through this, my inability to trust blindly, I discovered my true beliefs regarding spirituality: that we are the masters of our own destiny. Our attitude towards a situation, positive or negative, is the sole factor regarding the outcome. When our brains think, our bodies are subconsciously affected, and the key to success is learning to control ones thoughts in ways that are beneficial for you. If you think positively and believe you can achieve something, your chances of success increase tremendously. And that is what I base my life around. Why go into something with a negative attitude when, if you exert positive energy, you can attract and receive positive energy in return?
To sum this up, I am spiritual, but not necessarily "religious". I believe that I control my fate, my destiny, and every life experience, good or bad. Finally, and most importantly, I believe that religion is what you make of it. There is no concrete right or wrong, only what is right or wrong for
you.
Honey, I don't produce theater. I am theater.
Updated On: 3/28/06 at 08:41 PM