Follows is a very long vent. I apologize in advance.
I very much want to cry. I am up 2.5 pounds.
As I've mentioned earlier, my mother is staying with me for the next month. She is a very large woman (she wasn't always like that, just within the last few years this has occured) and her diet is ABHORRENT. She has eaten fast food at least once (sometimes more) every single day since she has arrived. I have turned down her offers to get me something well over half the time, but that is still bringing my fast food intake to a few times a week!!! Typically it's rare if I get fast food more than once every couple months.
She went grocery shopping as she refused to live on my diet of cheerios and salads (that and I'm a vegetarian and she is not). She has brought loads of unnecessary junk food into my home. My self-control just sucks, and if it's my apartment I will eat it. My best defense is to just keep the crap out of my apartment. So far that has worked well for me, but with her staying her that strategy is gone.
I've also been coming home from work to my mother's old homecooked meals, which although that is a nice thing to walk in the door to, they are loaded with calories and fat.
I am sure my caloric intake has doubled since she has arrived.
My workouts have been derailed as, in addition to horrible weather for over a week now, she is occupying much of my free time. I have been getting out for runs whenever the rain stops (which has been rarely) just to get some freaking time away from her as she is driving me absolutely MAD.
I've lost almost 20 pounds, and that was over a few months. I'm afraid that I am going to be up 10 by the time she leaves. She knows I've been dieting, she knows I've lost weight, and I've tried to talk to her about the fact that I am trying to live a healthier lifestyle now but she doesn't seem to care. She herself isn't in diet mode right now, and so she isn't particularly interested in supporting mine.
I know it's unfair to blame her, but I am finding her presence has completely thwarted my efforts. She is a very strong personality, when she thrusts a plate full of paste in front of you, you eat it.
I am feeling so depressed. I'm off to party with friends, and I don't even want to go because I am feeling so fat (it's only a few pounds, but I feel the difference!!)
Gah.
"You just can't win. Ever. Look at the bright side, at least you are not stuck in First Wives Club: The Musical. That would really suck. "
--Sueleen Gay