The Official Adam Pascal Love Thread, part three- Page 306

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 9:36pm

When did he say that?

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 9:40pm

It was way back in that first NY Times article about the cast then and now, the one which created the big ruckus about "atrocious" Broadway material. Buried in that paragraph was the sentence "But I can't wait to get back to it."

ETA: Wait, I went back to check, and it's actually in the Playbill interview. The exact quote is "I can't make a living doing theatre. But I can't wait to come back" Updated On: 12/4/05 at 09:40 PM

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 9:44pm

Well come on back, Adam!

*writes him a musical*

Posted: 12/4/05 at 9:45pm

He can't make a living doing theatre? Hasn't he been doing it for ten years now? I realize he's had CD deals in the process, and now the Rent movie, but I doubt he's taking in tons of money from his independent CD deal. I love the guy, but it sounds like he secretly wants to be a movie star... which really, who wouldn't? I don't blame him in the very least. I'm just afraid he's going to fade into obscurity and not use his best talent (his voice) as much as he should.

Anyone know how much he made doing the Rent movie?

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 9:51pm

I really don't think he wants to be a movie star, siamese. When he's talked about auditioning for film and TV jobs, it's always been in terms of not really wanting to do it. I think he's changed his tune because he's gotten more into acting, he probably got some positive feedback about the Rent movie from pros, and most important, I'm sure he wants to support his family in style. He's probably worried about the kids' education and stuff like that.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:02pm

You really have to be *extremely* lucky to make a living just doing theatre. It's hard.

I wonder if he doesn't want stardom. Sometimes I can't figure him out. Whatever he does, I hope he never stops singing.

I had such a weird thought... trip while I was watching Rent last night. I was thinking how strange it is, that these people are now only projections on a movie screen, and how conditioned I am to having them there in front of me. But on a grander scale, that most of the time when I watch a movie, the people in it are just that to me. Most of the time when I watch a movie, I'm watching an image of a person who doesn't even know I exist. It was so weird to watch Rent and have a mixture of the two things.

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:12pm

I know what you mean, Emcee. On some level, who wouldn't want to be a star? But I'm also thinking about when someone asked him if he dreamed about playing in Madison Square Garden, and he said that would probably scare him sh*tless, and his dream had always been to play to packed clubs.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:19pm

I want to see him play an intimate club setting again. So, so badly. He's totally electrifying when he does that.

I'd be sad if he went and got to the point where he was marketable on his pretty-boy looks, got by on his good-enough acting skills, and abandoned the music. THAT'S what makes him special. And that's the kind of "stardom" we're he'll get lost to boring mediocrity in a sea of pretty men.

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:28pm

I agree that there's nothing like him doing something like Joe's Pub. I think he could be special in the right part in the right film too. You get on with writing the musical for him and I'll work on a film

[insomniak]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:33pm

If Emcee does the music, I'll write the book. Emcee, do you still practice your trumpet?

I sort of know what you mean about the mixture of reality and media. Walking through the theatre district and seeing all the marquis (I have no idea how to make that plural) was SO weird. I read about these shows every single day and then to just see them plopped down like it's normal...

Strange.

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:40pm

Did you get to see anything besides Sweeney Todd?

[insomniak]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:44pm

Nope. I was only there a day and a half. I was hoping to swing a second show, but my mother wouldn't hear of it.

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:50pm

Well at least you got to see something really special.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:53pm

Not as much as I should, nia. :-/

It was just weird, because to me -- these are actual people. To Bob down the street, they're just some movie actors.

[insomniak]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:58pm

Special doesn't begin to describe it. I believe there was a Piazza tour rumor going around, too, so maybe not all is lost.

Emcee, is that out of laziness or do you just not love the instrument as much as you thought? I told myself that I liked playing the flute, but when I grew apart from my band friends during freshman year I stopped caring. When I dropped it altogether, I didn't miss it for a second.

[Chloe]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 10:59pm

I guess I always see them as both, somehow.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:03pm

Piazza is supposed to tour, yes.

It's for a lot of reasons. I just... I don't know what to do... or where to even begin how badly things with it have been screwed up. I wish I could just pick it up and play like I used to again, but I know that's horribly wishful thinking. I miss it a LOT, though. And I have this huge sense of guilt that I usually try to bury, because it breaks my heart. I feel like I just threw away so much because of one bad audition, and I'd give anything to have it back, but I just don't know how to go about getting it back. I feel like my motivation is gone, but sometimes it comes back, and I feel terrible.

Updated On: 12/4/05 at 11:03 PM

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:04pm

Can't you audition again, Em?

I hate playing in front of people, but I enjoy playing, though I'm taking a break now because I have so much work.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:07pm

Yeah, but I need a LOT of work before I'm ready to audition, especially at this level.

[insomniak]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:10pm

What's your old band teacher going to be up to while you're home over break?

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:11pm

Probably nothing.

But I've let him down entirely too much. And honestly, I'm more ashamed of that than I am of letting myself down.

[ElphieDefiesGravity]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:12pm

I think you should go for it, if you really want to continue playing. Bad performances/auditions are the worst (and believe me, I'm had more horrific piano recitals than I care to remember)but you'll never get over your fear, if that's your problem, unless you continue.

Heh, wow. That's good advice! Too bad I never listen to myself.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:14pm

I've played about once in the past year.

The thing with a brass instrument is that it's sort of like playing a sport; a lot of it is about maintaining strength in the musculature, but it's just concentrated into your lips and your tongue. When you go long periods without playing, that suffers. You have to work your strength back up again.

[insomniak]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:17pm

That makes sense... it would be weird, but if you really want to do this, email him and tell him honestly that you miss playing, you're horribly out of shape and that you'd like a few lessons. You don't have to tell him that you've only picked it up once. Before you meet again, you can practice a bit, too, just to get your lips working right again.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/4/05 at 11:18pm

I know he knows about all of this, and is probably horribly disappointed in me.