The Official Adam Pascal Love Thread, part three- Page 456
The Official Adam Pascal Love Thread, part three
#11375Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:47pm
Do you see her often?
I hope everyone else does, nia. I mean that.
I just realized my phone's been off of a while. Maybe I magically have a message about doing something toniht.
#11376Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:50pmI don't see her as much because she goes to Skidmore. But, she's my best friend and I've seen her almost every other day since she's been home and when we're at school we talk at least twice a week. So, bottom line is: I need to not be a wimp.
I recognize the addiction to being alive.
#11377Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:52pmYeah, if you don't tell her, she may not even think it's a problem.
#11378Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:54pmYea I know. I just rather not deal with things, but I need to bring it up casually or something.
I recognize the addiction to being alive.
#11379Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:57pm
Well, yeah. Don't call her and be like "SHAME ON YOU!"
In other news, I finally figured out how to text message.
#11380Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:59pmLovely avatar, Em! Yay for text messaging, isn't it fun?
I recognize the addiction to being alive.
#11381Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:03pm
I thought my phone didn't have it. Then I realized it did, but I had no idea how to reply to the messages I was recieving!
I should go downstairs so my parents don't think I'm a total hermit, but my mom's burning incense and it hurts my throat. I love the stuff, but it makes me all scratchy.
My dad's making pancakes; I'd best eat this time, I think. Things are still rocky with my brother. :-/ And a little bit with my friend, too, but I know she knows how hard I'm trying -- so I've got to trust that it'll be ok, even if it takes time. I feel like I'm trying *too* hard, but I can't stop myself from feeling like I have to explain everything.
Anyway, isn't dancing Raul a cutie? He looks like he's dancing out of the frame!
#11382Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:11pm
Dancing Raul is definitely a cutie! He looks like he's just gonna dance his way out of your icon. Pancakes sound really good right about now. Glad you're feeling a bit better 
I recognize the addiction to being alive.
wickedrentq
Broadway Legend Joined: 11/6/04
#11383Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:13pm
Morning everyone--I still have a bit of a headache but otherwise I'm fine, much better than last night so I can have fun tonight, yaay!
Fantab, it took me a while to realize this but it is very true if you don't say anything, they don't realize how much it bothers you, took me a while to learn but when I finally would open my mouth about something usually I'd get positive responses that I was right and they're sorry, glad I said something, etc.
Yaay for text messaging Em, did you somehow change a setting? B/c before I realized you didn't have it, everytime I would text you immediately I got back a message that it was deleted. Maybe I'll send you a text today b/c they're fun when you first learn to use them.
Well gotta leave soon to get my last Chanukah present.
"If there was a Mount Rushmore for Broadway scores, "West Side Story" would be front and center. It snaps, it crackles it pops! It surges with a roar, its energy and sheer life undiminished by the years" - NYPost reviewer Elisabeth Vincentelli
#11384Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:21pm
Nope, I just figured out how to work it! My parents disable it a while ago, but it's clearly back.
I'm sort of flip-flopping between telling myself it'll be okay and second-guessing until I worry myself sick that she's not telling me everything I need to know. I get afraid of subliminal messages and read too far into things and drive myself absolutely nuts. I'm afraid of pretending things are ok, or that it'll only be ok *if* we pretend until we've fooled ourselves. I know I've done something wrong, and I'm afraid I've thrown us off forever, and made her think less of our friendship, but I also keep reminding myself that I trust her, that we're not giving up, and that I know it'll come out ok.
I was just looking at the cookbook blog, and I accidentally clicked on the photo of Lennon and Monte, making it full-screen, and it was really awkward.
wickedrentq
Broadway Legend Joined: 11/6/04
#11385Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:25pm
Ahh that makes sense that it was disabled b/c it couldn't have been you just didn't know how to work it since I would get back deletion messages.
God, I know how you feel...I was always way too paranoid analyzing every thing w/ my friends...like are they mad at me if I said hi the wrong way...took me a while to fully trust my friends plus I got friends I knew were true close ones, and well...happy pills don't hurt. I mean I initially took them to lower my anxiety, particularly w/ school but they do so much more...at one point my Aunt who was like a second mother to me and my sisters went to the ER and as soon as I heard I teared up, we didn't know what was wrong...she was there 2 days. Apparently my sisters had been miserable the whole time, crying and not that I wasn't miserable, but...I dunno I just...something about the pills helped me to tell myself not to get too upset until we know something's definitely wrong, thank god it wasn't, and i had a much more pleasant 2 days since anyone, and I dunno I find hen I think of things that may cause me to worry like the thoughts are there, but I just...say yeah this sucks...so what's going on BWW and it's like out the other ear.
"If there was a Mount Rushmore for Broadway scores, "West Side Story" would be front and center. It snaps, it crackles it pops! It surges with a roar, its energy and sheer life undiminished by the years" - NYPost reviewer Elisabeth Vincentelli
Chloe
Broadway Legend Joined: 9/28/04
#11386Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:26pmHi - the reason I dropped out suddenly last night was that I discovered one of my cats was sick. I drove her to the emergency clinic, but there was nothing they could do. She's had a serious heart condition for a long time, and now had developed blood clots that were untreatable. They suggested putting her to sleep right away, as she would just be feeling worse and worse, so that's what we did. I feel awful.
#11387Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:29pm
Chloe - I'm really sorry about your cat 
and Em, second guessing everything won't get you anywhere
I recognize the addiction to being alive.
Chloe
Broadway Legend Joined: 9/28/04
#11389Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:44pm
Oh my God, that's so sad. I'm sorry. I know the doctor probably told you it's better not to have her suffer and all, but it's impossible not to feel awful about it.
aaaargh. Now my mom thinks I'm blaming her for not having plans. I'm not!
And you're right, Fantabulous. I have to stop worrying and just give it time. I know that, but I have this compulsion to keep trying to cover for any possible thing she might be thinking and not wanting to tell me. I trust HER but I'm afraid of being lied to. In general. The problem is that I don't trust my own instincts, and while I know that second guessing is only going to make me crazy, I can't help but think "what if I'm interpreting this wrong?" And it's hard to differentiate.
The pancakes were good, and I only feel a little bit nauseous. Good good.
Chloe
Broadway Legend Joined: 9/28/04
#11390Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:55pmThanks Emcee. I'm just glad I was home when she started to feel bad and that I was able to comfort her somewhat. This seems to be a pretty crappy New Year for a lot of us. Let's hope things are better soon.
#11391Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:57pm
Yeah, this isn't how it's supposed to be.
How did this happen? I can't figure out how I could've caused so much damage in eight days.
Chloe
Broadway Legend Joined: 9/28/04
#11392Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:06pm
Well, I imagine you've had quite a bit of help. Really, I'm sorry your holidays have been so difficult - and the same goes for all of you struggling with various school and home problems. Hugs to everyone. I'm off for a while, I need to grieve.
Updated On: 12/31/05 at 02:06 PM
#11393Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:15pm*big group hug*
#11394Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:16pm
Oh Chloe, I'm sorry. THat is tough.
I accidently slept til 2. So much for getting my schedule back to normal before having to go back to work in a couple days
#11395Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:51pm
Well, a friend who also has nothing to do invited me over around ten. So that's better than nothing.
#11396Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:13pmYay! Definitely better than sitting home.
I recognize the addiction to being alive.
#11397Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:18pmIt's not til late, but less hours to sit and stare at my walls. It should be fun. He's been through a lot of crap lately, and doesn't really have anyone to spend tonight with because he HAD to stop drinking.
wickedrentq
Broadway Legend Joined: 11/6/04
#11398Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:26pm
Yaay Em, glad you found something to do, i felt very guilty for having kitties.
Chloe, I'm so sorry! The same thing happened to my dog about a year ago. Knew we had to put him to sleep but it was very hard. I really miss him.
I still don't feel fantastic, probably will be lying down soon.
"If there was a Mount Rushmore for Broadway scores, "West Side Story" would be front and center. It snaps, it crackles it pops! It surges with a roar, its energy and sheer life undiminished by the years" - NYPost reviewer Elisabeth Vincentelli
#11399Adam's Slow Lovin'
Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:43pmWhat do you have, a virus or something?
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