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#11376

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:47pm

Do you see her often?

I hope everyone else does, nia. I mean that.

I just realized my phone's been off of a while. Maybe I magically have a message about doing something toniht.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

#11377

I don't see her as much because she goes to Skidmore. But, she's my best friend and I've seen her almost every other day since she's been home and when we're at school we talk at least twice a week. So, bottom line is: I need to not be a wimp.

I recognize the addiction to being alive.

#11378

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:52pm

Yeah, if you don't tell her, she may not even think it's a problem.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

#11379

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:54pm

Yea I know. I just rather not deal with things, but I need to bring it up casually or something.

I recognize the addiction to being alive.

#11380

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:57pm

Well, yeah. Don't call her and be like "SHAME ON YOU!"

In other news, I finally figured out how to text message.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

#11381

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 12:59pm

Lovely avatar, Em! Yay for text messaging, isn't it fun?

I recognize the addiction to being alive.

#11382

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:03pm

I thought my phone didn't have it. Then I realized it did, but I had no idea how to reply to the messages I was recieving!

I should go downstairs so my parents don't think I'm a total hermit, but my mom's burning incense and it hurts my throat. I love the stuff, but it makes me all scratchy.

My dad's making pancakes; I'd best eat this time, I think. Things are still rocky with my brother. :-/ And a little bit with my friend, too, but I know she knows how hard I'm trying -- so I've got to trust that it'll be ok, even if it takes time. I feel like I'm trying *too* hard, but I can't stop myself from feeling like I have to explain everything.

Anyway, isn't dancing Raul a cutie? He looks like he's dancing out of the frame!

A work of art is an invitation to love.

Updated On: 12/31/05 at 01:03 PM

#11383

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:11pm

Dancing Raul is definitely a cutie! He looks like he's just gonna dance his way out of your icon. Pancakes sound really good right about now. Glad you're feeling a bit better

I recognize the addiction to being alive.

#11384

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:13pm

Morning everyone--I still have a bit of a headache but otherwise I'm fine, much better than last night so I can have fun tonight, yaay!

Fantab, it took me a while to realize this but it is very true if you don't say anything, they don't realize how much it bothers you, took me a while to learn but when I finally would open my mouth about something usually I'd get positive responses that I was right and they're sorry, glad I said something, etc.

Yaay for text messaging Em, did you somehow change a setting? B/c before I realized you didn't have it, everytime I would text you immediately I got back a message that it was deleted. Maybe I'll send you a text today b/c they're fun when you first learn to use them.

Well gotta leave soon to get my last Chanukah present.

"If there was a Mount Rushmore for Broadway scores, "West Side Story" would be front and center. It snaps, it crackles it pops! It surges with a roar, its energy and sheer life undiminished by the years" - NYPost reviewer Elisabeth Vincentelli

#11385

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:21pm

Nope, I just figured out how to work it! My parents disable it a while ago, but it's clearly back.

I'm sort of flip-flopping between telling myself it'll be okay and second-guessing until I worry myself sick that she's not telling me everything I need to know. I get afraid of subliminal messages and read too far into things and drive myself absolutely nuts. I'm afraid of pretending things are ok, or that it'll only be ok *if* we pretend until we've fooled ourselves. I know I've done something wrong, and I'm afraid I've thrown us off forever, and made her think less of our friendship, but I also keep reminding myself that I trust her, that we're not giving up, and that I know it'll come out ok.

I was just looking at the cookbook blog, and I accidentally clicked on the photo of Lennon and Monte, making it full-screen, and it was really awkward.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

Updated On: 12/31/05 at 01:21 PM

#11386

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:25pm

Ahh that makes sense that it was disabled b/c it couldn't have been you just didn't know how to work it since I would get back deletion messages.

God, I know how you feel...I was always way too paranoid analyzing every thing w/ my friends...like are they mad at me if I said hi the wrong way...took me a while to fully trust my friends plus I got friends I knew were true close ones, and well...happy pills don't hurt. I mean I initially took them to lower my anxiety, particularly w/ school but they do so much more...at one point my Aunt who was like a second mother to me and my sisters went to the ER and as soon as I heard I teared up, we didn't know what was wrong...she was there 2 days. Apparently my sisters had been miserable the whole time, crying and not that I wasn't miserable, but...I dunno I just...something about the pills helped me to tell myself not to get too upset until we know something's definitely wrong, thank god it wasn't, and i had a much more pleasant 2 days since anyone, and I dunno I find hen I think of things that may cause me to worry like the thoughts are there, but I just...say yeah this sucks...so what's going on BWW and it's like out the other ear.

#11387

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:26pm

Hi - the reason I dropped out suddenly last night was that I discovered one of my cats was sick. I drove her to the emergency clinic, but there was nothing they could do. She's had a serious heart condition for a long time, and now had developed blood clots that were untreatable. They suggested putting her to sleep right away, as she would just be feeling worse and worse, so that's what we did. I feel awful.

#11388

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:29pm

Chloe - I'm really sorry about your cat

and Em, second guessing everything won't get you anywhere

I recognize the addiction to being alive.

#11389

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:36pm

Thanks, Fantabulous.

#11390

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:44pm

Oh my God, that's so sad.

I'm sorry. I know the doctor probably told you it's better not to have her suffer and all, but it's impossible not to feel awful about it.

aaaargh. Now my mom thinks I'm blaming her for not having plans. I'm not!

And you're right, Fantabulous. I have to stop worrying and just give it time. I know that, but I have this compulsion to keep trying to cover for any possible thing she might be thinking and not wanting to tell me. I trust HER but I'm afraid of being lied to. In general. The problem is that I don't trust my own instincts, and while I know that second guessing is only going to make me crazy, I can't help but think "what if I'm interpreting this wrong?" And it's hard to differentiate.

The pancakes were good, and I only feel a little bit nauseous. Good good.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

Updated On: 12/31/05 at 01:44 PM

#11391

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:55pm

Thanks Emcee. I'm just glad I was home when she started to feel bad and that I was able to comfort her somewhat. This seems to be a pretty crappy New Year for a lot of us. Let's hope things are better soon.

#11392

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 1:57pm

Yeah, this isn't how it's supposed to be.

How did this happen? I can't figure out how I could've caused so much damage in eight days.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

Updated On: 12/31/05 at 01:57 PM

#11393

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:06pm

Well, I imagine you've had quite a bit of help. Really, I'm sorry your holidays have been so difficult - and the same goes for all of you struggling with various school and home problems. Hugs to everyone. I'm off for a while, I need to grieve.

Updated On: 12/31/05 at 02:06 PM

#11394

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:15pm

*big group hug*

A work of art is an invitation to love.

#11395

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:16pm

Oh Chloe, I'm sorry. THat is tough.

I accidently slept til 2. So much for getting my schedule back to normal before having to go back to work in a couple days

#11396

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 2:51pm

Well, a friend who also has nothing to do invited me over around ten. So that's better than nothing.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

#11397

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:13pm

Yay! Definitely better than sitting home.

I recognize the addiction to being alive.

#11398

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:18pm

It's not til late, but less hours to sit and stare at my walls. It should be fun. He's been through a lot of crap lately, and doesn't really have anyone to spend tonight with because he HAD to stop drinking.

A work of art is an invitation to love.

#11399

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:26pm

Yaay Em, glad you found something to do, i felt very guilty for having kitties.

Chloe, I'm so sorry! The same thing happened to my dog about a year ago. Knew we had to put him to sleep but it was very hard. I really miss him.

I still don't feel fantastic, probably will be lying down soon.

#11400

Adam's Slow Lovin'

Posted: 12/31/05 at 3:43pm

What do you have, a virus or something?

A work of art is an invitation to love.

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