Is this how I die? Ridiculed and laughed at, wearing clown shoes
Is this how I die? Furious and reckless, sick with booze
How did I live? I taste every wasted minute
Every time I turned away from the things that might have healed me
How long have I been sleeping?
Is this how I die? Frightened like a child, lazy and numb
Is this how I die? Pretending and preposterous and dumb
How did I live? Was I kind enough and good enough? Did I love enough?
Did I ever look up and see the moon and the stars and the sky?
Oh, why have I been sleeping?
They say we are asleep until we fall in love
We are children of dust and ashes
When we fall in love, we wake up and we are a god, and angels weep
But if I die here tonight, I die in my sleep
All of my life I spent searching the words of poets and saints and prophets and kings
And now at the end, all I know that that I’ve learned is that all that I know is I don’t know a thing
So easy to close off, place the blame outside
Hiding in my room at night, so terrified
All the things I could have been but I never had the nerve; life and love I don’t deserve
So alright, alright, I’ve had my time
Close my eyes, let the death bells chime
Bury me or forget me, I just don’t care
Nothing's left, I’ve looked everywhere
Is this how I die? Was there ever any other way my life could be?
Is this how I die? Such a storm of feelings inside of me
And why am I screaming? Why am I shaking?
Oh, God, was there something that I missed?
Have I squandered my divinity, was happiness within me the whole time?
They say we are asleep until we fall in love
We are children of dust and ashes
When we fall in love, we wake up and we are a god, and angels weep
But if I die here tonight, I die in my sleep
They say we are asleep until we fall in love...
And I’m so ready to wake up now, I’ll wake up
Don’t let me down like this
I wanna wake up, God, don’t let me down like this
Please let me wake up now, don’t let me down like this
I’m ready, I’m ready to wake up
"Contentment, it seems, simply happens. It appears accompanied by no bravos and no tears."