Soooo tonight was FRIGGIN' AMAZING!!!
like... honestly, I could NOT have asked for much better!!

Except that the ending was a bit cheesey haha, but other than that, just GAH GAH GAH!!
The characters are finally becoming LIKEABLE again! And the character DEVELOPMENT just took some maaaajor leaps and bounds- suddenly everything makes SO much sense for Mer and Alex!!
This was SO close to a perfect episode. It was intense and engaging all throughout, but unline the aweful season 3 finale, things actually ended up on a really really GOOD note!
And like... Alex was being a total jerk to Izzie through most of the episode, but OMG the end. Just. If anyone deserves an Emmy, just kinda basing it off of this episode alone? It's Justin Chambers. First time EVER that we've seen Alex like that. And he did it SO well. I felt so aweful for him, but I'm also REALLY glad we FINALLY got some further insite into what happened in his childhood! And now it's like... well DUH he's screwed up: he had an abusive alcoholic father who left and a manic depressive mother who, we can infer, commited suicide! So yeah... WOW. It feels so nice to finally understand, though, where he's coming from in all his issues.
And Meredith too! FINALLY, FINALLLY she actually seems like she is healing her.... brokenness! haha
and basically all the kisses.
-CALLIE AND HAHN SQUEEEE and it made it all the better that this time it was CALLIE doing to initiating
-Alex and Izzie, again, by far the most emotional. And... I know that this is prob just a one time thing because he needs it right now and she's there and everything, but..I REALLY want them to be back together eventually. And it doesn't seem TOTALLY implausible to me, seeing as I think Alex's devotion to Ava/Rebecca is really much more about his own major insecurities than it is about him actually loving her. So if they DO choose to go back with the old school Alex/Izzie, I'm SO for that it's not even funny. LOVE them together
-oooh MerDer. I'm thinking this might ACTUALLY be the beginning of a NON off-and-on relationship for them!

SO happy about that!! I had kind of totally lost all interest in them for a while, but they're my favorite when they're together and happy, so they need to be
ummm.. that's about all I can think of for now to comment on haha
but yeah, seriously INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE EPISODE!!
and I know I say this like every week since it started up again, but truly, Grey's. Is. BACK!!
I don't need a life that's normal. That's way too far away. But something next to normal would be okay. Something next to normal is what I'd like to try. Close enough to normal to get by.