The Official Adam Pascal Love Thread, part three- Page 445

Posted: 12/30/05 at 2:52am

"I jumped to close some windows really fast this afternoon"

Heh, yeah, completely reminds me of my life on a daily basis. Most of my friends' parents don't give a crap about what their kid is looking at online.

Hm, well, I don't personally have a MySpace and I don't advocate 13-year-olds having them, but I do think that most older teenagers should be able to handle the responsibility of having one. If not, I think it's fine for the parent(s) to be involved to some extent, but there's a difference between kind-hearted involvement and someone watching your every move to the point where I've become an excessively paranoid person in general.

I also have a couple far-away friends that I've met online and would love to meet in person, but again, I can't because of my parents. I've known someone for over two years and still can't have a phone conversation with her without worrying that my parents are going to notice an "abnormal" call on the phone bill.

To be honest, one of the perks of going to a college far away (as I'll be doing next fall) is that I won't have to deal with this anymore. I don't like to spill my dramatic guts to everyone online, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm definitely in the same boat as you, Em, with a lot of this stuff and it sucks more than people would think.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 2:55am

Yep, I've run into the phone call problem many times. Before nia and I met, we couldn't talk on the phone to firm up plans because she couldn't have a New York number on her bill, and we were both not going to have computer access past about three days before. I was nervous that something might fall through, and we wouldn't be able to get in touch with each other.

[Fantabulous428]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 2:55am

Ok. I think my time has come. Gnite!

Posted: 12/30/05 at 2:58am

Ahh, the joys of living in a paranoid world. Heh. I've honestly thought about just going to my mom and saying, "Look, I have a couple of good friends I've made via the internet, they're not creepy, the end" but I KNOW that would only lead to a barrage of questions that I'd rather not answer.

Oh well, I guess.

With that, I'm off to bed, too. 'Night!

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 2:59am

Wow, the weird things BWW does for you..

I spent the last couple of days w/ my best friend in West Virginia/Wash DC and of course it was awesome, and I drove him last night and I've been slightly depressed since then. I love her so much, but I only get to see her for a couple days like twice a year, so it's hard to come home. The whole day I've been in a funk, just wanted to sleep and didn't feel like doing anything including watching several DVDs I've been really excited to, and going to bway and w/e didn't excite me. Anyway, I don't understand why but talking to you all tonight I think has put me out of the funk. At least I don't want to sleep anymore.

Hmm...I wouldn't think most parents would think their kids were on message boards if they're trying to hide stuff from them...I wonder what they think you guys are viewing

[orangeskittles]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 2:59am

My mom freaked about my sister have a MySpace the other day and she's 17. I figured it wasn't the best time to bring up BWW.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:03am

I don't know what's with me and sleeping. I'll probably sleep all day tomorrow, which is obviously a good way to pass the time. I'm tired. My body wants to go to sleep, but I think my mind is afraid of the stressed, unhappy wandering it will do once I turn this computer off and lay down to go to sleep. Its natural path is one of broken relationships, hurtful fights, a heartbreaking movie that I can't detach myself from, and computer tech support (can you believe I STILL have to call IBM tomorrow?). That's not a place I want to go, so I'll stay up until I can't take it anymore.

Updated On: 12/30/05 at 03:03 AM

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:06am

Well that makes sense Em. When I battled depression, mornings were the worst time, I detested them. So somehow I still have this new system of sleeping through mornings, w/ classes over I almost never wake up in the AM! And in this specific situation, it would make sense for you want to stay in the peaceful serentiy of BWW and save sleep for tomorrow. Though I have similar problems, like Thursday/Friday(whichever day you wanna call that time) when I get home at 3AM I'm obviously tired but I absolutely can NOT go to sleep until I've completely caught up on BWW and sometimes that's not till 5AM, no matter how tired I am. And in pre BWW days unless I wasn't feeling well if I was tired but didn't like...do anything during the night, i couldn't sleep. Like I had to watch a show or movie or do something fun before sleeping.

[orangeskittles]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:08am

Pre-BWW, I just stayed up late watching TV, so this is more productive than watching the Magic Bullet infomercial. AGAIN.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:10am

I think I just... these past few days, I have developed this sort of hatred for waking up. Not in an "ugh, it's too early!" sort of way, but in thinking "well, I wonder what I'm going to f*ck up today," or "I wonder who I'm going to fight with today." I don't even want it to BE another day right now, because I dread what I'm going to find in each day, and what I have to do. I don't want to be like that. I know it'll go away, but it's horrible.

Before BWW, I was still in high school, and I went to bed by 10 to get up at 5.

[orangeskittles]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:16am

Why do you think I stay up so late and wake up so late? The less time I have to spend interacting with my family, the less time there is to fight with them. If there was a way I could only be awake only during the hours they're at work, I would definitely be better off, but they'd have something else to fight with me about.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:18am

My mom will wake me by noon, but it's something. Maybe I can ruin my sleeping schedule enough that I sleep straight through all of the New Years' hoopla, and then I won't have to spend many lonely hours moping around my house.

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:20am

Aww Skittles, there's so much great stuff to watch at this hour...like...::puts on guide:: OMG Logo's having a real world marathon again, yaay! Hmm till 6AM...and 5:30 is SF, my fav...hmm...what to do...oh well, New Orleans is on now...and Billy Porter's on now! Talking about coming out and the channel...oh yaay. Oh and if you guys are interested, behind the scenes of Casanova is on E! at 3:30. But yeah, often you find the older south Parks, Frasiers, Darias, sometimes even care bears at this hour, it's great.

Em, that's exactly how I felt. I think it was easier to get up later b/c the day didn't seem so long.

OMG Anthony was just on!! They're polling ppl on what's the best gay theme song, and he said Prince...and I was too busy squealing I didn't hear the song he said! Actually it's not the Real World, it's music videos but I'm leaving htis on to see cool bway ppl.

Okay, continuing what I was gonna say next post...

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:25am

I'm falling asleep on my keyboard. I guess I should go. I want to see the Casanova thing, but I won't make it. I'm really hungry, but tired enough that it wont' make a differnce.

Thanks for the therapy session; I'm not quite one to silently sort out my problems on my own, especially not when I get tired enough to get my mouth and fingers really going with not so much regard. I'm hugely dependent on advice, at least as food for thought.

Goodnight; to a better day tomorrow, I hope.

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:26am

Aww it's a video for I Got Life! Damn, I gotta watch this channel more often...

Anyway, so yeah, when I was depressed, that was the feeling, stupid days didn't seem so long if I got up later. My therapist told me the first battle ppl who have breakdowns or horrifying events happen like a death in the family, w/e, is the first step is to find a reason to get up every morning. Ha, I went out and bought the most delicious breakfast foods ever to look forward to when I woke up. It was a start, and I very quickly discovered bway was my reason, but yeah I definitely know what you mean in that respect. Really in the beginning I slept so much, it's all I ever wanted to do, I was free from my fears/thoughts in sleep, never got so much sleep, it did kinda feel good. But yeah if you don't need to sleeping all day is bad. Then again I slept till 4PM one day recently, that's ridiculous for me. Oh well, I think I'm pointlessly rambling. But even in my state for some reason I felt kinda happy being up so late, or happy for me at the time. I am just not at all a morning person, so I erased mornings, makes the day much more pleasant

[orangeskittles]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:31am

I only have basic cable. And the TV is upstairs anyway.

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:32am

Aww, no problem about the therapy session! You know I want to be a psychologist and considering I constantly get yelled at by my friends to stop trying to be their psychologist, I do like the oppertunity to

Ahh Em come back, there's a Brokeback special on logo now!

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:34am

Hmm Skittles do you think I should watch it even though I haven't seen the movie yet? Hmm...then I'd watch PBS before the same infomercials, now there's a special on food within cultures

Well just to finish up what I was saying, I'm always thrilled to get to act a tad therapisty and have it appreciated

Anywayz, guess it's just us Skittles--you're usually up even later than me right?

[orangeskittles]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:36am

I'm off to bed too. I have to be up so early tomorrow I'm embarassed to post the time because everyone that reads this will yell at me for being up so late. Ah well.

NYC
Just got here this morning
3 bucks, 2 bags, 1 me!

[wickedrentq]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 3:43am

Ah well, have a good trip, perhaps I'll see you for a minute.

Oh I always get yelled at for posting this late...one of my BWW friend lives in Hungary and she always yells at me for being up so late that she goes to sleep and wakes up before i even go to sleep

Have a good night!

[dancingthrulife04]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 6:40am

Morning y'all! (If anyone's actualy here)


I got absolutely no sleep last night.

[Billboard Girl]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 9:56am

"NYC
Just got here this morning
3 bucks, 2 bags, 1 me! "

Heh, is it sad that just seeing that phrase brought back a million memories for me of when I was in 6th grade and sang that in my elementary school's production of Annie?

I see that the thread was quite busy last night. I definitely feel like I'm in the same boat with a lot of you about parents and message boards. I've posted on various boards for about 3 and a half years and I've tried to hide that from my parents as much as possible. My mom has heard all of the horror stories about chatrooms and crazy people and such, and the first time she saw me looking at a message board because I didn't switch the window fast enough, she freaked out and I had to tell her some ridiculous lie about the board I was posting at being completely anonymous and the people who used it didn't even have usernames identifying them. I always make sure to switch off the sound on the computer when I'm near her in case a message board friend IMs me, so she won't ask who I'm talking to. I don't even want to think about how she would react if she knew I've actually met people I first talked to on message boards, and I still can't believe I got away with the huge whopper of a lie I told her a few months ago (my mom and I had tickets to a concert, and a couple of days beforehand she changed her mind about going. I'm very active on a fan message board for the artist whose concert it was, and within a matter of minutes sold the extra ticket to another poster on that board. My mother called me up to suggest that I give the extra ticket to my roommate, and I had to tell her I couldn't because I had already sold it. I made something up about Facebook having some sort of ticket-resale section [as paranoid as she is about messageboards, she's perfectly okay with the fact that I'm on Facebook and my little brother has a Myspace because "only your friends can see that"] and that someone at my school bought the ticket from me.)

[iheartcheyenne123]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 10:09am

WOW, Billboard Girl your mom is strict about message boards! My mom is also very strict on the computer..ughh sometimes it feels like she stalks me! I don't even think my mom knows what a message board is! but she freaks out when she sees the word chat..and i just say "it is just a BUDDY CHAT mom, i know everyone that is in it", but sometimes that isn't true...like the bww chats..but she doesn't know that

Anyways...i got to go! I am off to take dance classes for the day! I'll be back later tonight though..

[Fantabulous428]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 10:21am

Good morning everyone! I hope today is a better day than yesterday around here

Ok, I am off to see The Nutcracker

[insomniak]

Posted: 12/30/05 at 11:34am

It doesn't look like anyone's here, but I'll say good morning anyhow. It looks like I missed a ton.

re: parents and bww

Mine usually trust my common sense, but they've heard too many awful things about chat rooms to even consider BWW as being ok. I've come very close to telling them several times because I want to be honest with them, but every time I've realized that they'll never trust me again after learning that I've lied to them about my online activities for almost two years. I really can't blame them for that, either. It's certainly a catch-22.

The phone thing is very tricky. I'm going to a party on New Year's eve but I felt bad about Emcee's sitting home all alone. I thought about calling her on that night and risking it, but now I don't think it's a good idea.