The Thread For Those Who Feel The Need To Share All of Their Banal Details- Page 85

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 2:51pm

Work on a paper or apply for an internship? heh.

[kissmycookie]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 2:53pm

multi-task! Both!

[insomniak]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 2:55pm

Banality:

The whole F*CKing world forgot that I'm here. I swear to God that if the building was on fire, everyone would run out and not bother to tell me to tell me.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 2:56pm

Cookie, I don't think that's possible.

[NYadgal]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 2:58pm

Nia... I actually know that feeling.

I'm noticing you.

[DayDreamer]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:03pm

insomniak: strange that I felt the same way for the past couple of months. And was chatting with my sister yesterday, and she said that she had felt the same way, and it seemed that a lot of people had a couple of strange couple of months... just sayin'... maybe it's just the end of winter getting to everyone.

[NYadgal]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:04pm

We're not alone!

[NYadgal]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:07pm

For Nia:

No, love, you're not alone
It's all right if you cry
If things don't turn out right
All we can do is try
We'll see a show tonight
There's something we can buy
No, love, you're not alone
Don't let it get you down
It's just another day
And everything's turned brown
You've walked your bloody mile
I'll hold you for a while
No, love, you're not alone
I swear the sun will rise
I promise you you'll laugh
Here, love, dry your eyes
Come on.

[kissmycookie]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:09pm

Still, you're not alone.
No one is alone. Truly.
No one is alone.
Sometimes people leave you.
Halfway through the wood.
Others may decieve you.
You decide whats good.
You decide alone.
But no one is alone.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:12pm

*fistwall*

One of my parents just left me a message. I hesitate to listen to it. I don't more people mad at me.

Updated On: 4/21/06 at 03:12 PM

[kissmycookie]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:19pm

uh-oh

[NYadgal]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:20pm

Hope Nia is feeling a little better...

Updated On: 4/21/06 at 03:20 PM

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:20pm

My other hand is starting to hurt now.

Someone please just shoot me. I'm so sick of this physical, emotional and mental hell.

[insomniak]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:39pm

Thanks, NYadgal and cookie. I appreciate it.

[Chloe]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:45pm

I'm thinking of you too, Nia.

Emcee, don't hurt yourself!

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:46pm

I have tendonitis. I guess that's not so bad, but the treatment is to rest it, which... is not an option right now.

I hung up on my mother again. I told her she was right, and she won whatever argument we were having and she still wouldn't stop lecturing me. What ELSE does she want?

*curls up, cries*
I can not do anything right, by anyone, ever.

I hope you're feeling better soon too, nia.

Updated On: 4/21/06 at 03:46 PM

[Chloe]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:52pm

It sounds like she's venting, and not listening to you. I don't know what you can do other than listen to her, which really does seem like too much to ask of you at this point. The trouble is, the more you hang up on her, the more she probably feels she's not getting through to you and therefore has to keep hammering away even more.

[son_of_a_gunn_25]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:53pm

Updated On: 1/23/09 at 03:53 PM

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 3:54pm

She's a terrible listener, and then has the nerve to tell me she's not berating me, she's trying to help. I've never seen anyone else "help" that way, that's for sure. I can't seem to get her to understand that if anyone adds any more stress to my life, I'm going to lose my mind. I am honestly going to go insane if I fight with, hurt or get hurt by one more person, if I have to look at another deadline or have one more thing to do.

Updated On: 4/21/06 at 03:54 PM

[Chloe]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 4:03pm

And I'm sure you've told her multiple times in multiple ways that she's not helping. She's being driven by her emotions and has no idea how she's coming off. It sounds like you two need a mediator.

Gunn, I'm really sorry you're so overloaded. Is there anyone at your school who can help you out? (prof, mentor, counselor, administrator) You shouldn't be having to starve yourself.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 4:06pm

I know she really does think she's helping, but it's so harsh. She also doesn't grasp the half of the REST of the trouble I'm dealing with right now, and truly does not understand that one more thing is going to make me snap entirely.

[Chloe]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 4:14pm

I have a feeling if you tell her that, she'll try to "help" even more. Having tried and failed to make someone understand the difference between "support" and "berating," it's hard for me to offer any concrete suggestions, other than hang in there. And if you really need to beat something up, try a pillow rather than the wall!

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 4:15pm

No, I'm not going to tell her. It's far too complicated, and it'll probably make her worry even more. My only option as far as my mom is to just do what she tells me to do and make her happy. She's not the only one who I can't seem to make understand anything, and it's so painfully frustrating.

*hugs pillow, cries*

[Chloe]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 4:24pm

I'm really sorry, honey.

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 4/21/06 at 4:26pm

On a slightly better note, I stumbled upon a really perfect internship. I'm going to send them my resume and a writing sample, and pray that it isn't too late.