#26
Posted: 12/30/14 at 12:30pm
When reading the graphic memoir years ago, I recall getting the impression that Alison Bechdel’s stance on whether her father committed suicide was still very much up in the air. But, in recent interviews with Bechdel, I’ve gotten the sense that she has now taken the stance that she does, in fact, believe it was a suicide.
If I can recall, the only times we hear it being said in the musical that Bruce killed himself is from Alison herself. With real-life Alison’s (seemingly) set belief that that is what truly happened, it makes sense that they would have character-Alison take this stance in the musical (especially because we are seeing these events through her memories).
That being said, they do still leave some question open in the musical as to whether or not it officially is a suicide. I, in particular, find his lyric “Why am I standing here?” in his final song to be particularly interesting and a really great way to handle the ambiguity of his death. That line can be interpreted in so many different ways and raises the question of whether he meant to do it, if he intended to do it and then jumped back at the last second (but still too late), if he really didn’t realize at all what he was doing, etc.
If I can recall, the only times we hear it being said in the musical that Bruce killed himself is from Alison herself. With real-life Alison’s (seemingly) set belief that that is what truly happened, it makes sense that they would have character-Alison take this stance in the musical (especially because we are seeing these events through her memories).
That being said, they do still leave some question open in the musical as to whether or not it officially is a suicide. I, in particular, find his lyric “Why am I standing here?” in his final song to be particularly interesting and a really great way to handle the ambiguity of his death. That line can be interpreted in so many different ways and raises the question of whether he meant to do it, if he intended to do it and then jumped back at the last second (but still too late), if he really didn’t realize at all what he was doing, etc.