I guess this is goodbye old pal...

[Kitzarina]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:08pm

My baby is dying. I can barely even type this out because it's getting hard to see the computer monitor through my tears.

My 10 year old darling, my sweetest boy ever, my best friend, the only guy who has ever loved me completely and unconditionally (who wasn't biologically obligated), my confidant, and my cuddle partner. My Callum is dying.

I can still hardly believe it, but I know that it's true and that at this time tomorrow, he probably won't be with us. I don't know what makes this all harder--how much I'm going to miss him or how hard this has been on my mom. I have never seen her cry like this and it breaks my heart even worse than the prospect of losing my puppy.

I want to get out of the house tonight; just live it up with one night of escapism. My dad thinks this makes me a horrible person, but I can't help it. The dog that is currently lying downstairs unable to stand up is NOT my Callum.

My Callum is the sweet boy who got up when I came home last week and walked over to me with his tail going like a whirlygig, even though he had just spent the last week at the vet. My Callum is the baby who will STILL try and chase a laser pointer around, so certain that this time the red dot will be his. My Callum is the puppy who used to bark at his reflection, chase his tail, and catch ice cubes in his mouth. My Callum is the sweetie who will let me burry my whole face in his fur and just breathe in that wonderful dog smell.

Because of that, I really don't see why I need to stay in this house that is full of so much pain and watch my mom cry her eyes out and my brother try to pretend like everything is fine. I said my goodbye; I want to remember how he lived and not how he's dying.

I guess this is goodbye old pal
You've been a perfect friend

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go watch stupid movies and drink to the memory of the best boyfriend a girl could ever want. A prince among dogs.

My Callum.



(He's the handsome Golden Retriever on the right. The other is our Eskie, Gidget. The house is going to feel increadibly small with just one dog. I'll upload some more pictures of Callum later)

[Fabrizio2]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:10pm

I am so sorry. I have had 3 dogs and 1 cat die. I know what you're going through.


I wish you the best.

[spiderdj82]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:11pm

Aw, sweetie. I almost started tearing up reading that. My thoughts go out to you and your family. **BIG HUGS**

[luvtheEmcee]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:14pm

He's beautiful. I'm so sorry.

[Rose_MacShane]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:14pm

I am so sorry. It's never easy to go through the loss of a pet. *hugs*

[harris007]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:14pm

i'm sorry my kityz


*big hugs*


*sends the cows over for hugs *

[DayDreamer]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:15pm

We all deal with grief in our own way... My thoughts are with you and your family.

[YouWantitWhen????]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:17pm

I am so sorry Kitz.

It is never easy to lose a pet, or do the right thing for a pet.

Stoli and Zorra send their love.

[smartpenguin78]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:18pm

My thoughts are with you too.
I send much love.

[StageManager2]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:20pm

Kitzarina, my deepest condolences. I know you may not want to remember your puppy in that manner, but if you were sick and dying would you want to feel "deserted" or have your best friend there by your side? Think about that. Take care and be well.

Updated On: 8/17/06 at 07:20 PM

[PalJoey]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:28pm

What a lucky dog that Callum is. He's had you to take care of him. You should go out and drink a toast to him tonight. He's always loved when you went out and had fun. You know why?

Because he always knew that you would come back and cuddle with him.

Updated On: 8/15/06 at 07:28 PM

[best12bars]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:30pm

Kitzy---Hang in there, sweetie. I'm so sorry to hear about your imminent loss. You made me tear up a bit too, reading this.

*big hug*

And you're not a bad person for wanting to go out. As DD said, everyone copes with grief differently. Do what you have to do. He will not be forgotten.

Posted: 8/15/06 at 7:45pm

"& when the veil of dreams has lifted
& the fairytales have all been told
theres a kiss @ the end of the rainbow
more precious than a pot of gold"
- mitch & mickey

[ILoveMyDictionary]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 8:06pm

I'm so sorry. That made me tear up. It's not easy getting over any loss.

[dramaparoxysm23]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 8:14pm

I wish there was something I could say to ease the pain. Just remember that he'll be in a place where he can finally catch the red dot.

[Broadwayboobs]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 8:17pm

Kitzy..I'm so sorry to hear this sad news. I have a golden too and I can't even think about what you're going through. Give your Mom a hug.

[harris007]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 8:18pm

great now i'm crying thanks =P




*hugs cows*

[Elphaba]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 9:06pm

d been with me for 17 years.

You may find some solace at http://www.rainbowsbridge.com

[otis33]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 9:08pm

Dog people (pet people in general) are a special breed of their own. It sounds like Callum was lucky to have had such a great family in you guys. And you are definitely lucky to have such a great friend in Callum. I love my pups more than the world, and know how unique and special that unconditional love is. Lots and lots of well wishes your way. And may Callum continue to wag his tail like a whirlygig forever!

[dancing_through_life]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 9:16pm

OH THATS SO SAD!!!! I started bawling when I read that. . . I'm so sorry for your loss, I'll pray for you. . . An amen to what otis33 said :)

[Holly Therese]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 9:43pm

I'm sorry. Loss is never easy.

[Broadwaylady]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 9:47pm

I know how it feels to lose a beloved pet. Sorry.

[suzycat]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 10:04pm

I am so sorry. Just know that you gave him a good life filled with love.

[bwayaddict]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 10:11pm

Sorry about your dog, Kitzy. It was 3 yrs ago yesterday, the day of the power outage, that my beloved Maltese died of an auto immune disorder. I still get teary eyed when I think of how hard it was. It does get easier but there is always an empty spot in my heart.

[Patronus]

Posted: 8/15/06 at 11:19pm

I am very sorry to hear about this, Katie.

We'll definitely keep you and your family in our thoughts. If you need to vent/unload, you know I'm here.