I'm gonna ask kind of a wimpy and personal question...
how is everyone dealing with all of the expectations put on you with these auditions?
I am (as I assume most people posting here who are auditioning for Tracy) someone who is that girl that is a great dancer but rarely gets to dance cause she's too big; I'm the cute one in the shows I do or the funny one; I'm the one with the great voice; but it's like, all of those, and being a big girl, rarely add up to a worthwhile role unless you have a director who casts on talent and isn't worried about looks. Now fortunately for me and many others, this wonderful role in Tracy Turnblad has come along. Ever since, everyone who knows me and what I do well but rarely get to showcase tells me all the time how I need to play Tracy. How it is perfect for me. How amazing I'd be.
But I'm far from the only bigger girl out there who can sing, be cute, act, be funny, and dance her ass off.
I cant' even count how many people emailed me or called to tell me about these auditions when they found out.
I just feel a lot of pressure to deliver - to come back and say "yeah, I got a callback" etc. It's starting to cloud my vision of how much I want to play this role for myself...I'm very good at keeping things in perspective and knowing that many times someone's just a better fit for something - but those around me expecting me to nail this (I think they don't realize jus thow many potentially incredible Tracy's there are in the world!) aren't so good at understanding that, y'know?
Just wondering if anyone else is dealing with this, and how they're handling it.
I'd much prefer to just go in there and do my best and have fun more than anything and be happy with what I did. Right now I'm just so stressed about the outcome that I know my audition is gonna be bad cause my mind is elsewhere.
If I show you the darkness I hold inside, will you bring me to light?