I guess that's what I'm arguing, that it wasn't (or may not have been) intentional sabotage. What she did, or at list when and how she did it, is not okay, and at best is just really bad timing and cluelessness. We've already seen that she can be pretty selfish, so it's possible she was just thinking about herself, about clearing her own conscience, than about how it would affect Karen. She also might have thought that she wouldn't have a chance to tell Karen after because it would be hard to get some quiet alone time with the star after her triumphant first performance -- and if she had bombed, it's even worse timing. Maybe she was concerned she'd lose her nerve if she didn't tell her at that moment. Maybe she had already been planning to take the pills after the show and knew she might not have another chance to tell Karen. Who knows? Again, I'm not saying it's justified. I'm just trying to explain what I think might have been going through her head, and why I think it's possible that she believed she was doing the right thing.
Aside from sleeping with Dev, which she did while extremely drunk and at a very low point, she had actually been friendly towards Karen lately. I know, that's a big "aside," but still. Lots of people do stupid things when they're depressed and drunk. She very obviously felt horrible about it after.
Again, not justifying. Just explaining why I think my interpretation of the scene is possible.
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Updated On: 5/15/12 at 04:46 PM